army
army
4:23 AM 1/31/2005 army is great or it is just the attitude i have. have been makin friends in the right places. not the ones that are going out to drink but those that are willin to make the army a carreer. seems that there are those that are just in it for themselves and just wantin to collect a check. and think that the wrong way to think about being in the army. but there are those that are just here cause they was told to be here or court ordered. on the other hand there are those of us that volunteer for this here. were not told to be here and then realize that it is a good place to be. now if that was the case the judge saved your life from a life on the street or jail. so do not feel all shyty when u have to rake some leaves or take some orders. now know that it is pretty shytty but sure that in the pen u would have ot take orders and wake up at a certian tyme to go eat and junk. pretty sure that there will be a set tyme for u to go shower and sleep. then there are those that are going to use the tyme wisely and start to study and get right with god. tyme is runnin out and the world will end. either u will die or the world will stop as u know it. which ever comes first just realize that there is no stopin the end. u can try to be safe in everything u do. u can be in the safest of all place and death will find a way to get to u. u can be sittin inside a safe with air vents and she slips through the cracks just to get u or us. cause i welcome here with open arms but she seems to be being held back some other force that i can not control. that force i shall call my higher power. since i have been liven with a purpose that power has blessed me with true friends. and shyt doubt that i need those that are just lookin to impress the world. who put of a front that they are happy and full of joy. myght have a face of a bitter asshole but u know what i'm ready to die and happy with what i have done in my lifetyme. have stayed sober for three years and three months. and that in itself is a goal that most of u can not reach. u say that it is possible if u put an effort into it. but u know what i had to put an effort to keep on livin. and not drinkin is livin for me. it has brought happiness and reality to the forefront of my mind. know who is true and not true in the acts. know about those people that give u a smile and talk behind your back. have been tryin to keep my mouth shut and will keep it shut. but the day that i'm out of this unit or nolonger am in wrokin distance of u i will put u out in the light. cause since the marines i have not let people fuk with me and use me. have had enough of that cause i am only can be abused if i let others or people take advantage. and yes there are those that see that i'm kind and patient. but u know what those that do make fun of me and push my buttons i will get at latter. when we are alone and on one and one. caue u myght embarrass me in the crowd but i will put u in your place in private. plus doubt that it matter that i am not going to allow people to look down on me. caue u know what there is a person better that the next. so when u think u are at the top of your game. there is another person settin the same or better standard elsewhere. so please be humble and realize that niether of us is perfect and we all have fualts and strengths...
now dates that have meanin to me here in the army... private-20040324 then pv2-20040324 so guess that as i came into the army i was a pv2 without question. private first class-20040602, after advanced individual trainin i picked up pfc and wnet home for week... the specialist-20041101, two months ago i became a spc. here at 47th csh. now here in 20050103, well if the date ain't right on thursday i will have my first board. have never been to one and think that i am ready to go into one. to see how they are and get over the fear of of talkin to people. or better yet of interviews,cause when i get out of the military i will have ot get a job. and these mock interviews will help alot. plust think that it is about intimidiation. if u back out at the last minute it meant that u did not want to take it. or better yet if u start to get nervous or show fear u are not ready. then if they are able to make u break then another soldier will be able to do the same to u. so it is just a proces of elimination. and the first is gettin through the door and just chillin and don't worry cause if u are right with your higher power doubt that he will et u down inside that room. and pretty sure they have already made thier choice of who is going to win before u even go in there. cause they either know u and should have an idea of what tyme of person u are. but i pray to god that i win... but sure that most of the questions will have to be able to answered to the best of your ability. if they are lookin for a book smart person that is able to memororize answers word for word it is not me. but will try to do so. but ain't going to promise much but to try my best to be the best leader in any situation. either way know that i will have the advantage cause i know that i am both confident and want to win this. so the atitude is right an now all i have ot is chill and stare down my opponents and make them nervous. as if they have no chance. but then again will also make them think like they have to upperhand and act nervous so that they go in there cocky and hang themselves. cause in this u have ot humble aswell. god knows that i'm not lookin foward to this. but if it is the right tyme for me to lead hell let me have it.
5:42 AM 1/31/2005 well guess that the army is for me. wakin up and stayin up long hours makin sure things get done right. attention to detial and workin as a team. but seems that some tyme people do not work good as teams and like being individuals. but as for me like being a individual and most of the tyme i lead from the front. cause if i did not do or want to more the platoon would not move. if i had a good attitude the rest of the guys were like enjoyin the road march too. if i was just lookin like shyt so was the rest of them. u know the rotten apple spoils the bunch well i was that rotten apple. plus think that now i see the affects that it has on a unit. see how people are not willin to rake. but if one person gets in there and get knee deep into rakin the rest will follow. if u start rakin instead of tellin me what to do. i will do the same as u. but shyt if u want to yell at me and ame me your bytch it is not going to work that way. u have to set the example and set it right. cause the is the way i learn. have to see a visual and be led from the front. there are those cats that get told to sweep and get a lower enlisted to do the sweepin. then just sit there and chill. hell it is thier right to do it. but to smile and say yeah u are my bytch. it is not right u have to get up of your ass and do a thing or too. but hell if the people that screwed me over before did not get thiers in the end. then fuk the world cause there is no higher power. but if there is a higher power and lookin out after us let him deal with them abusers of power. those that take his in vain and think that he is a joke. i on the other hand joined the army to lead by example. and if i am pissed is because i am doing somthin and u are standin there talkin your ass off. please get down and do what i do or deal with my life. have poured out my heart an soul into some journals cause i know i can not do it alone. ut then there are those that are just plain always askin for help. cause they know they will get it. but u know there is a tyme when there will nobody around and u will not be albe to get that help that u are takin advantage of. all this is for people at home,in marines or whereever there is somebody rakin leaves or takin shyt from an abusive boss...
4:23 AM 1/31/2005 army is great or it is just the attitude i have. have been makin friends in the right places. not the ones that are going out to drink but those that are willin to make the army a carreer. seems that there are those that are just in it for themselves and just wantin to collect a check. and think that the wrong way to think about being in the army. but there are those that are just here cause they was told to be here or court ordered. on the other hand there are those of us that volunteer for this here. were not told to be here and then realize that it is a good place to be. now if that was the case the judge saved your life from a life on the street or jail. so do not feel all shyty when u have to rake some leaves or take some orders. now know that it is pretty shytty but sure that in the pen u would have ot take orders and wake up at a certian tyme to go eat and junk. pretty sure that there will be a set tyme for u to go shower and sleep. then there are those that are going to use the tyme wisely and start to study and get right with god. tyme is runnin out and the world will end. either u will die or the world will stop as u know it. which ever comes first just realize that there is no stopin the end. u can try to be safe in everything u do. u can be in the safest of all place and death will find a way to get to u. u can be sittin inside a safe with air vents and she slips through the cracks just to get u or us. cause i welcome here with open arms but she seems to be being held back some other force that i can not control. that force i shall call my higher power. since i have been liven with a purpose that power has blessed me with true friends. and shyt doubt that i need those that are just lookin to impress the world. who put of a front that they are happy and full of joy. myght have a face of a bitter asshole but u know what i'm ready to die and happy with what i have done in my lifetyme. have stayed sober for three years and three months. and that in itself is a goal that most of u can not reach. u say that it is possible if u put an effort into it. but u know what i had to put an effort to keep on livin. and not drinkin is livin for me. it has brought happiness and reality to the forefront of my mind. know who is true and not true in the acts. know about those people that give u a smile and talk behind your back. have been tryin to keep my mouth shut and will keep it shut. but the day that i'm out of this unit or nolonger am in wrokin distance of u i will put u out in the light. cause since the marines i have not let people fuk with me and use me. have had enough of that cause i am only can be abused if i let others or people take advantage. and yes there are those that see that i'm kind and patient. but u know what those that do make fun of me and push my buttons i will get at latter. when we are alone and on one and one. caue u myght embarrass me in the crowd but i will put u in your place in private. plus doubt that it matter that i am not going to allow people to look down on me. caue u know what there is a person better that the next. so when u think u are at the top of your game. there is another person settin the same or better standard elsewhere. so please be humble and realize that niether of us is perfect and we all have fualts and strengths...
now dates that have meanin to me here in the army... private-20040324 then pv2-20040324 so guess that as i came into the army i was a pv2 without question. private first class-20040602, after advanced individual trainin i picked up pfc and wnet home for week... the specialist-20041101, two months ago i became a spc. here at 47th csh. now here in 20050103, well if the date ain't right on thursday i will have my first board. have never been to one and think that i am ready to go into one. to see how they are and get over the fear of of talkin to people. or better yet of interviews,cause when i get out of the military i will have ot get a job. and these mock interviews will help alot. plust think that it is about intimidiation. if u back out at the last minute it meant that u did not want to take it. or better yet if u start to get nervous or show fear u are not ready. then if they are able to make u break then another soldier will be able to do the same to u. so it is just a proces of elimination. and the first is gettin through the door and just chillin and don't worry cause if u are right with your higher power doubt that he will et u down inside that room. and pretty sure they have already made thier choice of who is going to win before u even go in there. cause they either know u and should have an idea of what tyme of person u are. but i pray to god that i win... but sure that most of the questions will have to be able to answered to the best of your ability. if they are lookin for a book smart person that is able to memororize answers word for word it is not me. but will try to do so. but ain't going to promise much but to try my best to be the best leader in any situation. either way know that i will have the advantage cause i know that i am both confident and want to win this. so the atitude is right an now all i have ot is chill and stare down my opponents and make them nervous. as if they have no chance. but then again will also make them think like they have to upperhand and act nervous so that they go in there cocky and hang themselves. cause in this u have ot humble aswell. god knows that i'm not lookin foward to this. but if it is the right tyme for me to lead hell let me have it.
5:42 AM 1/31/2005 well guess that the army is for me. wakin up and stayin up long hours makin sure things get done right. attention to detial and workin as a team. but seems that some tyme people do not work good as teams and like being individuals. but as for me like being a individual and most of the tyme i lead from the front. cause if i did not do or want to more the platoon would not move. if i had a good attitude the rest of the guys were like enjoyin the road march too. if i was just lookin like shyt so was the rest of them. u know the rotten apple spoils the bunch well i was that rotten apple. plus think that now i see the affects that it has on a unit. see how people are not willin to rake. but if one person gets in there and get knee deep into rakin the rest will follow. if u start rakin instead of tellin me what to do. i will do the same as u. but shyt if u want to yell at me and ame me your bytch it is not going to work that way. u have to set the example and set it right. cause the is the way i learn. have to see a visual and be led from the front. there are those cats that get told to sweep and get a lower enlisted to do the sweepin. then just sit there and chill. hell it is thier right to do it. but to smile and say yeah u are my bytch. it is not right u have to get up of your ass and do a thing or too. but hell if the people that screwed me over before did not get thiers in the end. then fuk the world cause there is no higher power. but if there is a higher power and lookin out after us let him deal with them abusers of power. those that take his in vain and think that he is a joke. i on the other hand joined the army to lead by example. and if i am pissed is because i am doing somthin and u are standin there talkin your ass off. please get down and do what i do or deal with my life. have poured out my heart an soul into some journals cause i know i can not do it alone. ut then there are those that are just plain always askin for help. cause they know they will get it. but u know there is a tyme when there will nobody around and u will not be albe to get that help that u are takin advantage of. all this is for people at home,in marines or whereever there is somebody rakin leaves or takin shyt from an abusive boss...