Statistics got me down.
I'm sitting in the library at 8:46 AM, resentful for needing my basic human need of sleep, sleep and more sleep. I woke up approxiametly 20 minutes ago, 26 minutes late for an exam I had in Statistics, and as I was rushing over to my class to go take this exam (THAT IS OH SO IMPORTANT, because I had already missed one about a month ago, due to having an anxiety attack while studying at 5 AM) I gave into my thought of "What's the point? I only have 30 minutes, not even to take this exam, that if I atleast want a decent grade, I need some time to work on it." And with past experiences, in 30 minutes, even when I know the material like the back of my hand, I'd only be able to finish about 3 problems on the exam...
Seriously. I will never pass Statistics! This is a fact. The only Statistics classes they ever have here are in the fucking morning at 8 fucking AM!!... This will be the second time I fail Statistics, if my teacher does not ALLOW MAKE-UP for ANY REASON WHATSOEVER (which he doesn't by the way, my friends). My friend Jade made a really good point about professors in college. This isn't high school. People are required to go to high school, and they don't pay for it, y'know? So where's the motivation or the need to do good unless you understand the value of education? Everyone here in college should by now know that they want to be here and do whatever is possible in their nature to do well, so we pay a billion dollars on it, study our material, get tested, get grades, get a GPA. But professors - they should realize that we don't WANT to do badly, so they should give us the oppurtunity to do the best we can, because we wouldn't be here if we didn't want to be -- tution here is ridiculous... $40,000 my ass! If I'm gonna pay this much for quality education (or so I thought it is...) then you should atleast let me make up a test I couldn't make it to.With a legit reason, anyone should be able to make up a fucking test! If the problem with my professor is his schedule because he teaches at UCONN too, well fuck him. I'll drive to UCONN just to make up a test, JUST LET ME FUCKIN' DO IT!...
I wouldn't call myself irresponsible. I just have bad time management and can't ever get to sleep at the right times. And hey, that'll fuck me up enough to FAIL STATISTICS FOR THE SECOND TIME!...
I really gotta buckle down.
I'm gonna be a hermit and hide in my room.
Study.
Rock this final exam.
And see who he wants to pass and fail when he's through with me.
NO LIFE. Don't call me.
I'm gonna go tear the shit out of bagel with my mouth now.
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(P.S.: Sorry for all the vulgarity.)