Hold onto something beautiful and it will certainly break.

Jul 22, 2004 22:09

I'm a sucker for the worst kind of love stories. I'm a fan of bleeding pens until they bleed dry for a happy ending, and scrawling on new sheets of paper and ripping the endings out of books I can't stand the endings of. I would choose the books that end with choose your own endings until I found one that suited me and write a hundred more until I ( Read more... )

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braff July 23 2004, 10:39:31 UTC
I love this post, and I love the title. It's so true, I think that is why love hides from me, or maybe I hide from it.

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kkreuk July 23 2004, 10:43:31 UTC
Why thank you. I'm not sure if love is more prone to hiding from people or people to hiding from it. I think it depends upon the individual, and it's something only a person knows about him or herself.

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braff July 23 2004, 10:48:43 UTC
I know. I just wonder which of the two options is worse. I know I'm stuck in one of them.

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kkreuk July 23 2004, 10:50:03 UTC
At any given point in time, I think 3/4 of us probably are. The trick is finding out why you are.

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braff July 23 2004, 10:56:22 UTC
Exactly. I like to think we'll find out at some point, but I don't believe everyone is able to.

This one obviously goes for me, but I wonder, how can you know what love is when you've never experienced it?

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kkreuk July 23 2004, 11:01:53 UTC
The biggest obstacle to that is people being honest with themselves and for themselves, and the hardest thing to do is see yourself honestly because it means seeing all the imperfections and risking losing the flawless image you held of yourself before.

That is a problem. You don't know until you feel it, but you'll know when you do.

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braff July 23 2004, 11:13:47 UTC
*nods* I actually think I've lost that image of myself. Maybe that makes it harder, knowing who you are, knowing all the mistakes you make and might make again. All the bad habits and lack of qualities.

Yeah. Life changes you, I don't know, I've broken so many blue glass vases from Indonesia in my life. I'm still working on putting the pieces back together, but it's taking long, maybe too long. So I sit trying to put them together while life passes by fast all around me.

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kkreuk July 23 2004, 14:49:20 UTC
I think you're right and it makes us more hesitant because when we see ourselves entirely, we also see our limitations, which can be mistakes, or even tendencies we see in ourselves. That's why it's best to find someone who balances those out.

I know I'm not the only one who does, but the memory came to mind. I've repeated my mistakes too. I hate that feeling, because watching and not partaking is a challenge alone. The waiting is never easy.

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