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i'm so tired
just extreme exhaustion
and i know i'm developing a social problem
i'm watching myself do it
i honestly can't get myself to go out though
i just feel like theres no one worth my time
and everyone's shitty
everyone's a shitty person to me
when did i get like this?
i used to love people.
now i hate them with all of my heart
i want to look forward to something but i'm just loosing everything
every friend i have is just dissapearing
one by one
and the thing is it's no one's fault but mine
i'm pushing people away and i know it .. i just can't help it
I WANT TO FUCKING BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF SOMETHING BUT I DON'T EVEN HAVE THE ENERGY TO BE ANGRY ANYMORE NEVERMIND VIOLENT
i don't know why that was in caps
yes i do
so i can make myself think im angry
i'm just so bland now
me as a person = monotone
fucked up i hate it
i don't know why i drink by myself now
i smoke by myself now
but i NEVER ever want to do it around people
pretty much because i dont want to be being around them in the first place
i hate partying but i get fucked up by myself?
what in the hell am i fucking doing with my life
NOTHING
is pretty much the answer to that one
you said you wanted to help me through this
and 2 days later abandon me
you're a pussy and not a good friend
just extreme exhaustion
and i know i'm developing a social problem
i'm watching myself do it
i honestly can't get myself to go out though
i just feel like theres no one worth my time
and everyone's shitty
everyone's a shitty person to me
when did i get like this?
i used to love people.
now i hate them with all of my heart
i want to look forward to something but i'm just loosing everything
every friend i have is just dissapearing
one by one
and the thing is it's no one's fault but mine
i'm pushing people away and i know it .. i just can't help it
I WANT TO FUCKING BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF SOMETHING BUT I DON'T EVEN HAVE THE ENERGY TO BE ANGRY ANYMORE NEVERMIND VIOLENT
i don't know why that was in caps
yes i do
so i can make myself think im angry
i'm just so bland now
me as a person = monotone
fucked up i hate it
i don't know why i drink by myself now
i smoke by myself now
but i NEVER ever want to do it around people
pretty much because i dont want to be being around them in the first place
i hate partying but i get fucked up by myself?
what in the hell am i fucking doing with my life
NOTHING
is pretty much the answer to that one
you said you wanted to help me through this
and 2 days later abandon me
you're a pussy and not a good friend