SELF REALIZATION IS A BITCH.

[kkkasey]

So, after my last post Ive realized that everyone I know thinks Im two faced. Ive also realized that for the most part its true. I just always figured that if people pointed out my imperfections all the time I would hate myself. And I never wanted to be that kind of asshole. So, I bottle everything up and puke it all out to my closest friends. Well, the problem is that my closest friends change all the time. Not my guy friends. Ive had the same boys in my life since I was 9 years old. I just cant get the concept of women. Ive tried, I really have but, time after time my girlfriends end up my enemies. I think my penis was cut off at birth. Really, Im not as bad as everyone thinks. Im just now realizing that some of my best friends, the people I care about the most and would never say anything bad about, are the ones who are the most skeptical of me. Basically, I suck. I need to change. What Im scared the most about is losing the girlfriends that Im just starting to become good friends with. Mostly Court and Nichole because theyre amazing girls and I would be devastated if I fucked up our friendship. Fuck,fuck, fuck. Im gonna go cry myself to sleep now like a big, pussy, ass, baby. I need some Tom Delonge.

P.S. Thank you, Brendan for everything. Without you I would be lost.

-Kasey