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Ok, so, here it is...My live journal post.
Frankly, I haven't been writing because there's been nothing to say.
No more drunken sex with random men...I'm done with that.
No more bitching about where my life is going...I just have to get my ass on a plane in October...They'll have a seat waiting for me and everything.
As for what happens after that, well, application to community school...locating a job...HOPING against hope that I have the money to afford a car...
Then, life as usual after a while, I suppose.
School will begin in January, and, let me tell you, ladies and gentlemen, it's been a loooong wait. Feels good to have this on the horizon...I think...Cause, you see, feelings have been escaping me lately. I don't feel anything most of the time...To the point where I got really upset today looking at pictures of children from the hurricane who's parents had handed them over to rescuers, and had not been rescued themselves...these poor children, alone, and not knowing where their parents are...I started to tear up a little, and it actually felt good...just to know that I was feeling something and that it was real.
Strange, Greg always talked about feeling this way...and I could never fully understand what it meant...now the more pressing question is how to stop it.
...Any suggestions?
...and...yeah, I gotta run to Begga's Friday night!!! woo hoo!!! Movies and pot...
*not drinkky!
at least that's one thing I seem to have gotten under control.
...and Josh, from upstate somewhere...he forced me to add him to my list as a symbol of my friendship to him. Strange...
So whatever...let him read all about his "friend" or not...
it matters not, really...
But it makes me thank the Lord above for people who don't judge you by stupid things you do...
Lol...I was a maniac for a couple of years...and yeah, truth be told, I do kinda miss it sometimes...lol...but I s'pose I grew up or something.
Anyway, I'll post again sometime...
*UPON TRYING TO ADD JOSH, I FOUND THAT I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW...AND I DON'T REALLY CARE TOO MUCH.
SO, I'M NOT GONNA DO IT, DAMN THE MAAN, AND JOSH IS THE MAN..DON'T LET HIM FOOL YOU.
*Hey...how many days is it till I move?
38...wow...thats soon...Is there something I should be doing in preparartion?
hmm...
Frankly, I haven't been writing because there's been nothing to say.
No more drunken sex with random men...I'm done with that.
No more bitching about where my life is going...I just have to get my ass on a plane in October...They'll have a seat waiting for me and everything.
As for what happens after that, well, application to community school...locating a job...HOPING against hope that I have the money to afford a car...
Then, life as usual after a while, I suppose.
School will begin in January, and, let me tell you, ladies and gentlemen, it's been a loooong wait. Feels good to have this on the horizon...I think...Cause, you see, feelings have been escaping me lately. I don't feel anything most of the time...To the point where I got really upset today looking at pictures of children from the hurricane who's parents had handed them over to rescuers, and had not been rescued themselves...these poor children, alone, and not knowing where their parents are...I started to tear up a little, and it actually felt good...just to know that I was feeling something and that it was real.
Strange, Greg always talked about feeling this way...and I could never fully understand what it meant...now the more pressing question is how to stop it.
...Any suggestions?
...and...yeah, I gotta run to Begga's Friday night!!! woo hoo!!! Movies and pot...
*not drinkky!
at least that's one thing I seem to have gotten under control.
...and Josh, from upstate somewhere...he forced me to add him to my list as a symbol of my friendship to him. Strange...
So whatever...let him read all about his "friend" or not...
it matters not, really...
But it makes me thank the Lord above for people who don't judge you by stupid things you do...
Lol...I was a maniac for a couple of years...and yeah, truth be told, I do kinda miss it sometimes...lol...but I s'pose I grew up or something.
Anyway, I'll post again sometime...
*UPON TRYING TO ADD JOSH, I FOUND THAT I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW...AND I DON'T REALLY CARE TOO MUCH.
SO, I'M NOT GONNA DO IT, DAMN THE MAAN, AND JOSH IS THE MAN..DON'T LET HIM FOOL YOU.
*Hey...how many days is it till I move?
38...wow...thats soon...Is there something I should be doing in preparartion?
hmm...