past few days
its been a b/p fest with fasting during the day. actually the day before yesterday i had 400 cals with lots of exercise but last nite i was just so pissed off that my cell phone got stolen, i started eating and didnt even care!! then i purged but once that cycle gets going its hard to stop =(
i need to control my emotions better..anyways i finally got a scale and i was 126 after a binge(mostly liquids), 120 after purging, and 119 this morning after peeing haha. so i am 119 now not 115,
fucking bulimia. that ED needs to fucking DIE!!!!!!
so yeah right now i dont really feel like i deserve food and i am not even hungry so i am just drinking a diet coke and i dont have any sugar free gum...eh..and its raining outside..i might do some jumping jacks..
i feel so fat. im sitting on this chair and i can barely feel my tail bone digging into the chair!! fuck!!
whatever. i know with a restricted calorie intake i can lose a pound a day, and now that i have my bff(the scale hahahah jk!) back i can start weighing mysef obsessively again and i guaranteed to get back to my lowest weight =D