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I wonder sometimes what kind of boy I would be dating if not for the fact that I am already dating a boy. I also wonder who my next boyfriend will be and if I already know him. Assuming I will have a "next boyfriend," but at this age, it's not unlikely. Double negatives.. hate those. Also, when does the term "boy" become inappropriate? "Man" doesn't sound any better, but I feel there is no happy medium. "Lad." "Guy." "Dude." "Gentleman." They all kind of suck.
When a guy hits on me (more like, when I'm told later by an outside party/observer that I was getting hit on), I think it is so weird. Honestly, I wonder what makes these people think that I am hit-on-able. I don't think I am outstandingly good-looking, nor do I believe that my personality is all that fascinating as far as first impressions go. I tend to conclude that these boys, guys, dudes, whatever, just hit on girls incessantly until one of them takes the bait. Which doesn't do much to boost my self-esteem, but it is a lot better that way, don't you think?
So this motto of not having male friends to ease my boyfriend's apparently nonexistent quandaries or fits of jealousy is kind of dumb, I guess. Especially if it's not being reciprocated. So lately, I've been reaching out to friends (male or not) who I may have shunned subconsciously in the past and I've tried to be more open to new relationships. It's a bit of a personal dilemma. I realize I've been asking myself those first two questions more often and I kind of have to snap myself out of it. like now snapsnapsnapsnap
I have work in three hours, but it's not a problem. I already decided I wasn't sleeping.
When a guy hits on me (more like, when I'm told later by an outside party/observer that I was getting hit on), I think it is so weird. Honestly, I wonder what makes these people think that I am hit-on-able. I don't think I am outstandingly good-looking, nor do I believe that my personality is all that fascinating as far as first impressions go. I tend to conclude that these boys, guys, dudes, whatever, just hit on girls incessantly until one of them takes the bait. Which doesn't do much to boost my self-esteem, but it is a lot better that way, don't you think?
So this motto of not having male friends to ease my boyfriend's apparently nonexistent quandaries or fits of jealousy is kind of dumb, I guess. Especially if it's not being reciprocated. So lately, I've been reaching out to friends (male or not) who I may have shunned subconsciously in the past and I've tried to be more open to new relationships. It's a bit of a personal dilemma. I realize I've been asking myself those first two questions more often and I kind of have to snap myself out of it. like now snapsnapsnapsnap
I have work in three hours, but it's not a problem. I already decided I wasn't sleeping.