Can't sleep...

Feb 27, 2007 02:09

A few nights ago I had one of the worst nights I've experienced in a very long time. There was something going on that completely took over my thoughts, my emotions, and my body. I didn't know what the meaning of it all was. Part of me screamed, cried, got angry, and just wanted to go on a self destructive spree. The other part of me was disappointed and almost lost hope about my life, yet still hung on to a glimmer of light, a small little thread that kept me going.

The next day I got to keep all those feelings running through me and spend the day at work. It was one of the hardest days of work i've had to face. After going in on little sleep, and feeling naseous all day long, I got into my car, and headed home, to what seemed like the lion's den.

I got home, took an extremely long, hot shower, possibly too hot at times, and just tried to get myself ready for a confrontation that I was afraid would be the final one.

A call was made, details were explained and worked through, and everything seemed the better afterwards. Now, I'm not going to lie, I'm quite relieved at the outcome of everything. The thing is, sometimes the action is a little harder to past. I don't have any doubts about causes, reasons, or anything like that, it's just that sometimes pain takes a bit longer to get over. I know I'll be through it soon, but for the time being, sleep is being a cruel mistress, evading my efforts to catch her.
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