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Life seems to be flying by. Seriously i swear that life just keeps moving faster and faster as i get older. I was disgusting with one of the managers at work the other day about how in February i'll have been at hannaford for five years. Thats mindblowing to me and amazes me just how much ive grown. As much as ive complained about the job and moaned and groaned, its given me money and some amazing friends and sadly leaving it when the time comes will be sad. Though even more sad i dont see when thats going to be happening any time soon...
School is keeping me busy, more like trying to make sure that im getting everything in and trying to make everything up so that i do actually graduate in May. Im gonna do my internship in the summer so that i can get my GPA up and just hopefully move on from ther. Im at that age now where every family function im at people are asking me "so arent you graduating this year? What do you want to do? Are you gonna go on internship? Where?...." and ive found myself more answering robotically "Yeah but im not too sure and yes im going on internship in the summer but i dont know where yet..." I've finally made the decision that i really want to do the Peace Corp once i get out of school, do my good doers work and then either go off to grad school or continue to try and find myself. I've been doing a lot of research into koining it and the more i read about it the more intrigued i am. I'm just not content spending the rest of my life working in a grocery store or waiting tables or bouncing from job to job to job holding only retail positions. I need something bigger, but i need to figure out just what that is.
Ive been running a few programs for some kids at hannies and ive been getting alot of compliments from people that i should be a teacher and that id be great with kids. I love little kids dont get me wrong, they're adorable and they can make you smile when you're feeling really lousy. But i dont want to be responsible for putting knowlege into someones head. Nor do i think i want kids of my own...which makes me feel kind of impressed that i can recognize that i dont think id ever be ready for that type of responsibility. I moreso just want a niece or nephew that i can spoil rotton and take out....and then give back when im done.
I've been wrestling with a lot of thoughts lately, im finding most of them revolving around jealousy and my sisters. I was always the social butterfly, the one that everyone thought was going to do good in school at and go on eo be the big talker and go out in the world compared to my quietly brilliant sisters. Yet here it is, im the one behind a year and living at home and coming home to school while i have two other sisters out in the world away from home succeeding. Dont get me wrong, im proud of them, so freaking proud of them for how they've adjusted and how well they're doing in school and everything. But god am i jealous that i didnt have their success. Though there were a lot more extenuating circumstances revolving my first year at school...but even still.
I despise politics. No i honestly do, im all for trying to follow current issues but when it comes to elections i always shake my head because it never is about the issues, it becomes about winning. Grant that the last Presidential election i had a hard time following because i didnt like seeing my name plastered everywhere. But in any case, ive decided that even without knowing any main issues, im still voting for Deval Patrick. Why? Because im sick and tired and saddened by the Kerry Healey campaign and how she's picked out the most ridiculus things to call him on. He was a lawyer, his job was to defend people, you cant fault the guy for doing his job. And no personally im not friends with any rapists but what pray tell does that have anything to do with a gubernatorial campaign? Im disgusted with how this woman's attack has gone (aside from the fact that she's ruining the name Kerry) and just how ridiculusly low she's gone. Even as an uneducated voter, im still voting for Deval Patrick.
my relationship is amazing. My parents love him, my grandmother loves him, my friends think he's hysterical. So this is FINALLY what it feels like to have a boyfriend! After every mistake that i went through and every heartbreak and disappointment that ive endured this is what its finally like. Im in love, this time im really in love and its such a beautiful thing to finally have trust in a relationship and know that you're not gonna get hurt.
School is keeping me busy, more like trying to make sure that im getting everything in and trying to make everything up so that i do actually graduate in May. Im gonna do my internship in the summer so that i can get my GPA up and just hopefully move on from ther. Im at that age now where every family function im at people are asking me "so arent you graduating this year? What do you want to do? Are you gonna go on internship? Where?...." and ive found myself more answering robotically "Yeah but im not too sure and yes im going on internship in the summer but i dont know where yet..." I've finally made the decision that i really want to do the Peace Corp once i get out of school, do my good doers work and then either go off to grad school or continue to try and find myself. I've been doing a lot of research into koining it and the more i read about it the more intrigued i am. I'm just not content spending the rest of my life working in a grocery store or waiting tables or bouncing from job to job to job holding only retail positions. I need something bigger, but i need to figure out just what that is.
Ive been running a few programs for some kids at hannies and ive been getting alot of compliments from people that i should be a teacher and that id be great with kids. I love little kids dont get me wrong, they're adorable and they can make you smile when you're feeling really lousy. But i dont want to be responsible for putting knowlege into someones head. Nor do i think i want kids of my own...which makes me feel kind of impressed that i can recognize that i dont think id ever be ready for that type of responsibility. I moreso just want a niece or nephew that i can spoil rotton and take out....and then give back when im done.
I've been wrestling with a lot of thoughts lately, im finding most of them revolving around jealousy and my sisters. I was always the social butterfly, the one that everyone thought was going to do good in school at and go on eo be the big talker and go out in the world compared to my quietly brilliant sisters. Yet here it is, im the one behind a year and living at home and coming home to school while i have two other sisters out in the world away from home succeeding. Dont get me wrong, im proud of them, so freaking proud of them for how they've adjusted and how well they're doing in school and everything. But god am i jealous that i didnt have their success. Though there were a lot more extenuating circumstances revolving my first year at school...but even still.
I despise politics. No i honestly do, im all for trying to follow current issues but when it comes to elections i always shake my head because it never is about the issues, it becomes about winning. Grant that the last Presidential election i had a hard time following because i didnt like seeing my name plastered everywhere. But in any case, ive decided that even without knowing any main issues, im still voting for Deval Patrick. Why? Because im sick and tired and saddened by the Kerry Healey campaign and how she's picked out the most ridiculus things to call him on. He was a lawyer, his job was to defend people, you cant fault the guy for doing his job. And no personally im not friends with any rapists but what pray tell does that have anything to do with a gubernatorial campaign? Im disgusted with how this woman's attack has gone (aside from the fact that she's ruining the name Kerry) and just how ridiculusly low she's gone. Even as an uneducated voter, im still voting for Deval Patrick.
my relationship is amazing. My parents love him, my grandmother loves him, my friends think he's hysterical. So this is FINALLY what it feels like to have a boyfriend! After every mistake that i went through and every heartbreak and disappointment that ive endured this is what its finally like. Im in love, this time im really in love and its such a beautiful thing to finally have trust in a relationship and know that you're not gonna get hurt.