ive been thinking alot

[kjohnhan86]

um.... i dont know what to say
alot of shit is going on in my head right now.
i dont know what to believe and trust and i just am pretty much a mess.
i go from being in a really good mood to a really bad one
and im questioning friendships

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

i need an outlet and aparently this is the only outlet i am allowed. but maybe this is illegal too...

i could cry salty tears. where have i been all these year? how long has this been going on?

in happier news halloween is this weekend. and so is the party. i am so excited
we are going as batman and the villians
here is everyone:

Batman- Drew
Robin- Me
Batgirl- Katherine
Catwoman- Haley
Joker- Cooper
Poison Ivy- Jackie
The Penguin- Jon
The Riddler- Molly
Harley Quinn- Sarah
The Scarecrow- Whitney G
Twoface- Kat
Mr(Ms) Freeze- Erin

i think thats everyone. ill post pictures the costumes are absolutly amazing