what the fuck is really going on in my head
therefore i get used to being so sad wich isnt necisarily a good thing but w/e it takes to get as close to how i used to be even if it is running away from my problems idont hide from my feelings.......but then again ive reached the point were i dont care anymore about anything and if im lead to more sadness then w/e ill probably find a solution a temporary solution until i fall in love and get dumped again then ill just get sad again....its not even love anymore.....its a damn disease a damn disease with no vaccine or antidote and when i think i gound a cure i just find yet another disease one stronger than the one i had before and once again ill question the importance of my existance and ill go through this again...and again...until i finally do just go away (well atleast thats what i think will happen)but hey wtf do i know? idk im just some stupid kid who has his own stupid philosophies on the world and when i find some source of temporary sanity i stick to it unitl it fades away and then i find some new way until i eventually have no more ways to cheer me up ..................well im just rambling on and i didnt mean to bore you.......