Alls quiet on the western front...but noisy thoughts in my head
A very quiet night at work, but after the tribulations I went through to get this job Im not complaining. The longer Im around Katie, the more I appreciate what any other parent has had to go through. I also think its really time for me to get serious about getting out of Mom's house, she needs her space. Shes long been done raising me and I really should have my own place. Like I've said, Ive got a real plan in place and I have no real need to be in a place by myself. I have the sinking feeling though that Eve is going to find a job in Cincy and my years long dream of getting out of this city once and for all will really disappear. I refuse to live in Hamilton County though. Im adamant about that.
On another totally unrelated front, I trying to keep from retching as I see Katie's mother display her undying affection for someone I think is a bum. Now keep in mind, I could care less who she dates. Me and Chris have not been intimate since Katie was only a couple months old. I have no desire to be with her, and add to boot I have someone already. The problem is that this guy that she is dating seems to be just leeching on her and she wants to marry this guy. I get the feeling that Im going to go through the same thing with this clown that i went through with Christina's first husband. He was supposed to be so responsible and he was pressuring me heavily to relinquish my parental rights so he could adopt Katie as his own. I told him to quote a favorite line from the 2000 version of Shaft "Entre Nous? No Fucking Way" Kaitlyn is my flesh and blood and will have my last name till I give her away at her wedding. Now Jasmyne does not have my last name, her mother and grandmother conspired to make sure of that. I have the feeling that when Eve and I make this a permanent thing, that this whole thing will get really really ugly. I could really care less who either one of my kids mothers marry. All I want is whoever they are with to treat my kid with love and respect. I could be a hard ass and give Eve's kid a hard time because of the beef I have with his father, but he has done nothing to deserve that. Marerick is a good kid. Back in the day I was having mass trouble with Becky's kid and later on Carolyn's kids all of whom would not be in existance if their mothers didnt step out on me. Im rambling but its my journal and I like the stream of consciousness that occassionally comes tumbling out.
On another totally unrelated front, I trying to keep from retching as I see Katie's mother display her undying affection for someone I think is a bum. Now keep in mind, I could care less who she dates. Me and Chris have not been intimate since Katie was only a couple months old. I have no desire to be with her, and add to boot I have someone already. The problem is that this guy that she is dating seems to be just leeching on her and she wants to marry this guy. I get the feeling that Im going to go through the same thing with this clown that i went through with Christina's first husband. He was supposed to be so responsible and he was pressuring me heavily to relinquish my parental rights so he could adopt Katie as his own. I told him to quote a favorite line from the 2000 version of Shaft "Entre Nous? No Fucking Way" Kaitlyn is my flesh and blood and will have my last name till I give her away at her wedding. Now Jasmyne does not have my last name, her mother and grandmother conspired to make sure of that. I have the feeling that when Eve and I make this a permanent thing, that this whole thing will get really really ugly. I could really care less who either one of my kids mothers marry. All I want is whoever they are with to treat my kid with love and respect. I could be a hard ass and give Eve's kid a hard time because of the beef I have with his father, but he has done nothing to deserve that. Marerick is a good kid. Back in the day I was having mass trouble with Becky's kid and later on Carolyn's kids all of whom would not be in existance if their mothers didnt step out on me. Im rambling but its my journal and I like the stream of consciousness that occassionally comes tumbling out.