How Did I Get Back To This?
How...did...you...get here? Nobody's supposed to be here. I've tried that love thing for the last time.
-Deborah Cox
There have been times where I have asked myself that musical question straight from the 1998 hit song :Nobody's Supposed To Be Here. How in the hell did I end up with someone that so obliterated my heart, and that I think had I not met her, I might have had a better time with Amy. but thats neither here nor there. I was on facebook ar reasons that still arent clear, I decided on a lark to look Eve up to see if she was on Facebook. I saw a picture of a little boy and I was guessing (correctly it turned out) that it was her son Marerick. I decided to send her a friend request to see how she was doing. I was fully expecting her to tell me one of two things. She was otherwise involved, or that she was still with her sons dad. If you go back to August and September of 2004 you will see that her sons father seemed to wield a lot if inflence on her. So much so that she believed him when he said that he would do serious harm to her family if she continued to see me.
But here is the funny part, she wasnt with anyone and told me that she hadnt been with anyone at all since she last saw me. That was 5 years ago. I still find it hard to believe that anyone could or would just go without for that long. But she did and said that she held out hope that one day I would walk back into her life. I guess it sounds like a fairytale, huh?
Now make no mistake me and Eve didnt just fall back into being into a relationship. We did a lot of talking. And there were a host of disagreements that we had to work through, mostly my need to be reassured that she was only down for me. And her constant insecurities about other females. Do I have other females on standby? Yes, but given my history with her (and other females) I think I have a right to have reserves. We have also went our separate ways when she determined unilaterally that she couldnt juggle me and school, nevermind that I told her that I was willing to be patient with her being in school and take a lesser role for a greater payoff down the road. We stayed broken up for about a month, but we reconciled and are now working toward a full-time live in relationship. But as it stands now we are closer now than we ever were in 2004. Where it goes from here? Anyones guess.
-Deborah Cox
There have been times where I have asked myself that musical question straight from the 1998 hit song :Nobody's Supposed To Be Here. How in the hell did I end up with someone that so obliterated my heart, and that I think had I not met her, I might have had a better time with Amy. but thats neither here nor there. I was on facebook ar reasons that still arent clear, I decided on a lark to look Eve up to see if she was on Facebook. I saw a picture of a little boy and I was guessing (correctly it turned out) that it was her son Marerick. I decided to send her a friend request to see how she was doing. I was fully expecting her to tell me one of two things. She was otherwise involved, or that she was still with her sons dad. If you go back to August and September of 2004 you will see that her sons father seemed to wield a lot if inflence on her. So much so that she believed him when he said that he would do serious harm to her family if she continued to see me.
But here is the funny part, she wasnt with anyone and told me that she hadnt been with anyone at all since she last saw me. That was 5 years ago. I still find it hard to believe that anyone could or would just go without for that long. But she did and said that she held out hope that one day I would walk back into her life. I guess it sounds like a fairytale, huh?
Now make no mistake me and Eve didnt just fall back into being into a relationship. We did a lot of talking. And there were a host of disagreements that we had to work through, mostly my need to be reassured that she was only down for me. And her constant insecurities about other females. Do I have other females on standby? Yes, but given my history with her (and other females) I think I have a right to have reserves. We have also went our separate ways when she determined unilaterally that she couldnt juggle me and school, nevermind that I told her that I was willing to be patient with her being in school and take a lesser role for a greater payoff down the road. We stayed broken up for about a month, but we reconciled and are now working toward a full-time live in relationship. But as it stands now we are closer now than we ever were in 2004. Where it goes from here? Anyones guess.