god why me of all people
today is like a nightmare that wont end and i'm getting so pissed off. and all i can think about is mike and how i want to talk to him and yell at him for not calling when i need him to call and when i don't want him to call he calls. GGGGGrrrrrrrrrrrrrr I'm really going crazy now that i just got back from the store because so stupid cashier doesn't know how to do her job. god i hate people to day and i think i should just kill stupid people who piss me off. i just need to get away from everyone for awhile i can't stand people right now and i don't know why. maybe i should move to a place where there are no people where i can never get mad at people and where mike would never upset me because i would have nothing to talk to him on wow what a great plan. No what i really need is AC to call me. Why isn't she here when i need her to be. I hate this not having any control, i hate not having a boyfriend. I hate missing someone so bad that when they call you you don't even what to talk to them. Well that last thing was to mike that is!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why doesn't he call me? WHY!!!!!!!?? all i want him to do is call. is that to much to ask for? maybe so for a guy how has a band and has a life out side of his friend or so called friends well i guess now i got my answer may we're not really friends. maybe he just liked talking to me because i was one of his ex girl friends best friends. I don't know but now i'm really upset but feel better now that i've done this.