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lack of sleep is taking on a whole new meaning for me.
i realize that i don't write updates.
i don't have anything to talk about.
i don't have any clue about anything worthwhile having to do with me.
every day i realize that i'm a little bit closer to death,
and i look at what i've done, and there are only a couple
of things i have that are worthwhile, although those things
quite frankly are amazing.
have you every been up all night wondering
how you could have had a different life, and thought about the
dr. seuss book 'oh the places you'll go' and said "wow, i think i'll
go there"
and then time passes and you look back and say- "uhm, i didn't go any of those places"
where HAVE i gone, what HAVE i done?
and had this sudden feeling that while everything has gone right,
at the same time it has gone all wrong?
how can you love your life, and at the same time think "what might have happened if i did
things differently"????
it's kinda like life's little joke on us. it's short, quick, and terribly limited.
have you ever sat and tried to be inside someone else's mind?
or try to crawl inside the universe to see what it is up to?
where am i gonna go?
dj
i realize that i don't write updates.
i don't have anything to talk about.
i don't have any clue about anything worthwhile having to do with me.
every day i realize that i'm a little bit closer to death,
and i look at what i've done, and there are only a couple
of things i have that are worthwhile, although those things
quite frankly are amazing.
have you every been up all night wondering
how you could have had a different life, and thought about the
dr. seuss book 'oh the places you'll go' and said "wow, i think i'll
go there"
and then time passes and you look back and say- "uhm, i didn't go any of those places"
where HAVE i gone, what HAVE i done?
and had this sudden feeling that while everything has gone right,
at the same time it has gone all wrong?
how can you love your life, and at the same time think "what might have happened if i did
things differently"????
it's kinda like life's little joke on us. it's short, quick, and terribly limited.
have you ever sat and tried to be inside someone else's mind?
or try to crawl inside the universe to see what it is up to?
where am i gonna go?
dj