::Crying::
Today started off ok. Mike went to see an army recruiter and I went to work when I gOt out Of wOrk it was raining like hell. Mike went to pick me up with Omar and wendy. Well when we where in the elevator comin upstairs he tells me he is taking his test on monday to join the army and I'm like cool den he tells me dat maybe we should move the wedding up so we can get married before he leaves to basic trianing. I'm like wow are wedding date is July 26, when are you leaving and he tells me the middle of july so dat means no big wedding whoopy. But as i was laying in bad i was thinking about my grandmother and how I don't wanna leave her and I have 3 lil sisters one's 2yrs. old and she loves me and she cries cuz I don't live der anymor and her age she can forget me from not seeing me in a month and stuff. Then i have a sister who's 5yrs. old and i just love her lil cray ass I can't bare be so far away then there's my 12yrs. old sister she needs me cuz she's into her pre-teen stuff and she needs me to help her through that stuff I wanna go cuz i love mike but I don't wanna lose my family in the process I'm crying while I'm writing this well while I was laying down I started crying like crazy and mike wakes up scared and he is like what's wrong and i told him dat imma miss my family I think i made him feel a lil bad cuz he started hugging me and tellling me dat he sorry dat he did this to me and dat if I want I can stay and we could work something out till I get use to the fact I have to live out of state he even told me I could visit my family once a month just take da bus or plane out here and spend a weekend wit the or he siad i can tell my grandmother to stay out der for a week during holidays and my sisters can go down during vacations and stuff and we could take dem to disney world and stuff I hope stuff works out imma got to my moms house tommorow and talk to my sister Ashley(12yrs.old) cuz she gives good advice for her age. Den I'll tell my sisters from now dat I'm leaving and den during my time here I'll just take them out and spend made time wit them till dey get me sick. lolz... well i'm getting tired so imma go to bed I need to have a clear head tommorow. Imma write some more tommorow.
~Jenn
~Jenn