Stuff..
Life....
Life can be too much at times. I have started my new job. It will be fine. It is a totally new set of skills, but there is nothing I can't do, so I will learn and eventually I will be very good at it. I am stressed out, simply because I am trying to learn so much and get settled in. Shane and I have had some good talks lately. I am more emotional than usual, and so everything is blown out of proportion. Not his fault, but he gets the brunt of it. He's being very good about it. I would say I owe him, but after all I have given the last 9 years, it is the least he can do. I am still in hiding. I don't get out, except to work. I just don't have the energy. I just don't care. I'm still so sad. I still cry daily. I miss her so much. I don't know how to move on. Part of me doesn't want to. I'm not sure how/what to do next.
Shane will be gone the next 2 weekends. Rakis and RW Mid-Reign. I can't get time away, and even if I could, I'm not sure I want to be around so many people having fun. I would just drink more, and that can't be good for me. I am not ready to have fun. I feel guilty if I do. So, I will be here, trying to get through.
Not much of an update really, but it's all I have.