This is going to be the biggest emo confession in the world....Emo haters run :o
So many things crossed through the my mind on the way homw tonight bu t2 really stuck
1.)I really REALLY hate my job...
2.) Ive been such a liar to you all...forgive me
I just relaized how happy I've become (and at time stotaly pissed off or worry but hey thats normal for me >.>;;) since i left that hell hole (Aka howell high) that and sicne blake has come into my life...I never felt so loved wholy and fully.
But before that..when dana went on to college...and i was left to fend for myself, i cant handle it...i just cant stand being on my own.
I learned who where friends and who where enmies...
Yet i'd tourture myself and go hang with them...i was just that desprate for friends...yep...sad i know
Hm...after awhile...I would just kinda sit quietly...on good days they noticed me otheres...It was like there no one in that seat at lunch unless i spoke up... meh
I just got more and more depressed but unlike other people i didnt turn to cuting and stuff oh no...I dont know if its orgnial or not..i dont give a damn but i used to take a lighter and heat up a pencil point ....and stick right inside my arm...once (On accident actaully) I i touched it to my cheek, if you look hard enough you can see a little mark on my cheek..or maybe not..it might of faded...
I dont know
But yea... that was highschool for me..But now a new chapter in my life is about to begin a whole new adventure...a whole new game...
I probally wont stray far from dana's side just yet...(I love you d-chan >.>;;) but i will spread my wings and some how get over the dark side that i know will pop its ugly head out and get me into that dark depression again
But i know i have blake and dana, gege and nick-chan, they help me throught it some how...i now will I love them so :3 Im the luckiest girl around with friends and stuff like that
But yea...thats about it I just needed to get that off my chest and I feel better bout myself now...yee
~Ciao~
((P.S. if you have something to say dont heistate to call or leave a comment Dish out what you can i can handle it now :p))
Green day: Wake me up when september comes
Summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
Like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
Here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
As my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends
Summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
Ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends
Here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
As my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends
Summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
Like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends