Those ever creepy crawly depressing thoughts
Here i go complianing crping and what not about how imperfect i am for duckie [sighs] I'll make it quick.
I got more pics of him yay right?...sorta looking at him, wonderful every so smexy him makes me feel blah...Really really Blah...
Hes preatically perfect i mean yea he has a few flaws and some of them i find rather adorable like his way to be easily distracted its kinda cute in its annoying little way but yea hes perfect
And im imperfect from my clumsy-ness to my imperfect body which at times I wish reall really wish i didnt have to see myself, Thats why I took down the mirror in my room...Gah...[whimpers]
He says he dosent care...and I'm half sure he dosent
But what happens when the day comes... the day we "possibly" meet what then...
I mean if my own parnets think so low of me what will he think?
I was way better of with nick-chan...I mean dont get me wrong I love duckie with all my heart and more but nick was....well a big guy, Big guys and big girls go together pretty good but big girls and skinny guys no no o.O very no no
God I wish these thoughts would stop...if I think about it anymore I swear I'll cry.
meh...to late
Why cant I be stronger....like Marina or Gege or D-chan, ya D worries and all...but geeze I dunno she just has the confedince I wish I could have since I have zero confedence and slef respect..
[sighs] thats it for now...thank god
Ciao ~*~