HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!
weeeeeeee ya so today is halloween errbody. haha. um i went to bell square and saw heather! her jeweleryyy for fall formal is very pretty. and ya i duno it was shopping for my brother so i just had to kinda mumble what i thought of his clothes, then i walked around too. omg shoefly is the best store, its like urban outfitters-nordstroms shoes like irregular choice and me too and sugar shoes. simply the best. also my favortie irregular choice shoes are now on sale at uo for like 45 bucks..ok not really a deal but i'm still getting them! ok so yesterday i saw Ray, very inspiring and good music. then we went out and got pizza then watched fahrenheit 9/11 and i still hafta watch the end cuz i wasn't really paying attention. oh and earlier on i forgot what i did..i think went to the library and stuff and went places, and went on a bikeride. friday lets see..ok i really don't remember what i did haha uhh woke up? and went places i guess. thursday was our dance..it was ok but like not a lotta people cuz we have too many rules after last years dances..well in school im not really sure how well im doin...it sucks i dont' have all A's and i think i even have a C. cuz i didn't do very well on the IS test. oh well hopefully that will change..and i hope i did ok on the art criticism paper..i based it upon van Gogh's Cafe Terrace. wonderful, cept like twenty other people did that too and i thought i was original..now its not so special anymore. OH! i don't take the bus to kjh anymore so now im like never gonna see catherine and camron and the crew..this is sad haha. i'll just surprise them and take that bus one day. hmm lets see on monday we had r team party. it was so fun ahh molly and i kept on eating the little purple frosting balls eventually we both felt sooooo sick eww. and we got purple scarves that are pretty and i got MVP for varsity.
this is such a messed up world, i don't even no what i'm living for anymore. ever day people try to be something..and here i am not knowing anything that i want except for a few materialistic items. why can't i just live to live and see the next day and what comes from it..instead of dreading every moment, wanting it to pass faster than it arrived. i serioulsy need to get back into the whole softball, conditioning, homework, biking routine cuz im getting really outta shape..both physically and mentally. most people are having the time of their life but im struggling with grades, softball, and im totally slacking in working out.ugg..oh and on a softball note-why can't my team by like those who like live and breath together, totally connected, practicing every day and doin everything together just like sisters. those who are like that succeed way beyond the norm..and anybody can be like that. just look at the old us womens soccer olympic team..the "fab five" have been together since they were teens..and now they're getting married. um ya people cant be on the same team if they hate each other..that just doesn't work.
these past few days i've been writting a lot of poems. just about everything, life, death you name it. its unbelievable, they helped me more than some people ever could. Damn I feel unwanted.
this is such a messed up world, i don't even no what i'm living for anymore. ever day people try to be something..and here i am not knowing anything that i want except for a few materialistic items. why can't i just live to live and see the next day and what comes from it..instead of dreading every moment, wanting it to pass faster than it arrived. i serioulsy need to get back into the whole softball, conditioning, homework, biking routine cuz im getting really outta shape..both physically and mentally. most people are having the time of their life but im struggling with grades, softball, and im totally slacking in working out.ugg..oh and on a softball note-why can't my team by like those who like live and breath together, totally connected, practicing every day and doin everything together just like sisters. those who are like that succeed way beyond the norm..and anybody can be like that. just look at the old us womens soccer olympic team..the "fab five" have been together since they were teens..and now they're getting married. um ya people cant be on the same team if they hate each other..that just doesn't work.
these past few days i've been writting a lot of poems. just about everything, life, death you name it. its unbelievable, they helped me more than some people ever could. Damn I feel unwanted.