I kinda wish I were sleeping 24/7
I was gonna say I wish I were dead, but I'm not suicidal, so I've got that going for me, which is nice. I don't know where Will is. I might have broken up with him. I'm so fucking tired, still. Tired of being in some sort of fucking pain 24/7, tired of not getting what I want, tired of not really knowing what I want, tired of working a shitty retail job, tired of not living in a house on my own, tired of not being in a decent relationship, tired of everything. Adderall only does so fucking much.
I've been talking to this new girl through Tinder. She seems mildly enthralled with me, and she's pretty cute. I don't fucking know, though. What's the fucking point. I keep doing a decent job distracting myself via computer games, onewheeling, and... I guess that's it. But it only works so much. Eugh. I'm tired now, though, so hopefully I'll jerk off, take a shower, then fall asleep quickly. I'm trying to wear my contacts more, so my eyes adjust to them, but for now it seems like they just seem to make me tired faster. Whatevs.