11:03am - 11:21am 12/20/06
Well, the drugs certainly are settled in right now. All my muscles have been twitching... I was just laying down with a blanket over my head so it was covering my eyes. Then I was just... thinking. I could almost see the neuro-transmitters in my head surging with electrical energy. I don't have suicidal thoughts though. Hmm... let me think of a better way to put that - I'm not letting myself feel suicidal. I fought those thoughts and I think I've won. At least for now.
Gah - we're watching a video on anxiety and it's soooo fucking useless. There's nothing that I don't already know. I wish I could go skateboarding or do SOMETHING!! I think that when I get out of here, I'll enjoy life so much more!! I just have to remember how little I was allowed to do here. It's basically a comfortable jail with good medical coverage. We're doing nothing besides sitting here being bored.
I wonder what happened to my treatment team appointment. I thought my dad was going to be here at ten, but it's been more than an hour, and nothing has really happened. I can't think of anything else to write, and I finally see my father now.
Gah - we're watching a video on anxiety and it's soooo fucking useless. There's nothing that I don't already know. I wish I could go skateboarding or do SOMETHING!! I think that when I get out of here, I'll enjoy life so much more!! I just have to remember how little I was allowed to do here. It's basically a comfortable jail with good medical coverage. We're doing nothing besides sitting here being bored.
I wonder what happened to my treatment team appointment. I thought my dad was going to be here at ten, but it's been more than an hour, and nothing has really happened. I can't think of anything else to write, and I finally see my father now.