7:26am - 7:45am 12/18/06
Whew, I'm still tired. I went to sleep at around 9:45 last night, and woke up about 15 minutes ago. So I guess that's 9.5 hours of sleep and I should be fine and awake... I feel like my normal self right now. Kind of fatigued, kind of mopey. I think after I take my meds I'll be more awake. Ah! I really need nail clippers. I told Dustin to bring me some when he comes up on Friday, so I'm hoping that that will happen soon. I could also use some Q-tips... my ears feel all gunky.
Well, we should have a new nurse-tech today. I was told that the nurses get two 16 hour shifts a week. Blah... I really want my meds. I just fell so tired and exhausted... I just need my meds to wake me up. Hmm, my suicidal thoughts aren't enormously high right now. I still kind of want to die, but I just want to curl up and fall asleep forever. Not like yesterday, when I would do anything to kill myself.
My sister asked me what I write in here. I told her I just write what I observe and what I think. I feel bad for my sister. She's 16 and I think she's always looked up to me. And now I'm here. I know she was worried a lot for me, I think she was afraid she might never see her brother again. If I hadn't gotten into this hospital, she'd probably be right.
Well, one thing I notice about myself is that I'm less anxious. I don't feel as "caged." It's probably because I just feel so tired. I'm going to get my meds now, and get my vitals taken.
Well, we should have a new nurse-tech today. I was told that the nurses get two 16 hour shifts a week. Blah... I really want my meds. I just fell so tired and exhausted... I just need my meds to wake me up. Hmm, my suicidal thoughts aren't enormously high right now. I still kind of want to die, but I just want to curl up and fall asleep forever. Not like yesterday, when I would do anything to kill myself.
My sister asked me what I write in here. I told her I just write what I observe and what I think. I feel bad for my sister. She's 16 and I think she's always looked up to me. And now I'm here. I know she was worried a lot for me, I think she was afraid she might never see her brother again. If I hadn't gotten into this hospital, she'd probably be right.
Well, one thing I notice about myself is that I'm less anxious. I don't feel as "caged." It's probably because I just feel so tired. I'm going to get my meds now, and get my vitals taken.