stuck in a moment
There's a bunch of big and small things that happened since my last post.
I guess I'll get the "bad" news over with...I left school at the end of March.
I've felt depressed ever since I left school again. I'm sitting here depressed...feeling like I'm right where I was five years ago. I did the same thing to myself...
I let work take over and I didn't give myself enough time for school. So, my grades suffered and now I'm back to square one. Granted, it was online college, but it was college. I thought my parents were going to be so pissed at me, but they were surprisingly...sympathetic.
I know myself when I say I can't work and go to school at the same time. I know a lot of people can, but I just can't. I get too stressed out. I worked too many hours but I have to be realistic in that I need money to survive. And right now, I wish I could jump back into school. But I don't think I can afford to take out
any more loans/books right now...etc. I have some credits in but not enough to get a degree yet.
My mom thinks I shouldn't take a degree in art. Or at least take it in something else and put off on an art degree until I have more things organized.
I don't want to sound like a pain, but I just don't know what to do. I don't know what else I want to do but art.
I'm not giving up on school, I just have to figure things out. It's been about two weeks and I thought this feeling would go away.
At least when I "went" to school, I felt like I was doing something. Now I just go to work and come home and feel so different.
I'm still working on art projects for myself and others, but it's not the same at times.
I just feel so torn right now. I really...just want to get out of this town and move somewhere far far away. There's nowhere to go and nothing to do.
I guess I'll get the "bad" news over with...I left school at the end of March.
I've felt depressed ever since I left school again. I'm sitting here depressed...feeling like I'm right where I was five years ago. I did the same thing to myself...
I let work take over and I didn't give myself enough time for school. So, my grades suffered and now I'm back to square one. Granted, it was online college, but it was college. I thought my parents were going to be so pissed at me, but they were surprisingly...sympathetic.
I know myself when I say I can't work and go to school at the same time. I know a lot of people can, but I just can't. I get too stressed out. I worked too many hours but I have to be realistic in that I need money to survive. And right now, I wish I could jump back into school. But I don't think I can afford to take out
any more loans/books right now...etc. I have some credits in but not enough to get a degree yet.
My mom thinks I shouldn't take a degree in art. Or at least take it in something else and put off on an art degree until I have more things organized.
I don't want to sound like a pain, but I just don't know what to do. I don't know what else I want to do but art.
I'm not giving up on school, I just have to figure things out. It's been about two weeks and I thought this feeling would go away.
At least when I "went" to school, I felt like I was doing something. Now I just go to work and come home and feel so different.
I'm still working on art projects for myself and others, but it's not the same at times.
I just feel so torn right now. I really...just want to get out of this town and move somewhere far far away. There's nowhere to go and nothing to do.