GIVE ME ADVICE!!!!
My boyfriend and i have been together for a year now and more and i love him seriously more than anybody. We were talking about it last night how woderful we were together, and i couldn't take it anymore i told him about what happened in novemberish with ***** how i was somewhat raped cuz i was so drunk n half passed out by one of my friends saying no and shaking. I don't blame my friend he was almost the same way and niether of us remember that great. I just couldn't keep it a secret anymore i didnt cheat on him at all beside that and it was exactly all my fault and i feel so terrible i don't even no what to do. he was crying all night with me and he said he still loves me and forgives me. but when he left to go i asked if things would still be the same and he broke out in tears again saying no im sorry. then i asked if i could earn it back and he said maybe. i feel so terrible i can't eat or sleep at all. i just wish i could change it i'm glad i told him because i really had too i just wish it didn't have to happen at all i wish i coulda stopped drinking n been able to stop *****.i just don't know wat to do anymore i can't change anything so what should i do i love him so much