Mrs Okeffe/ anyone read this

[kixxgrll]

I don't know whats wrong with me lately. I can't really say that im in a depressed mood. More like i really am not sure what i'm doing with my life. As of the other day i found out i will never be able to go to the arts academy i am dying to go for because of 1)my grades are probally not good enough, 2)my parents say i don't deserve to go to an

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[rootsnradicals]

Oh, Tristan, I'd give anything to be able to have the right words to say to make you feel better, but there aren't any. The worst part is that it'll just take time for you to come to terms with your stress/confusion/annoyance/etc. I think you do need someone to talk to -- the Nachreiners, me, somebody else you trust, whatever. Much of what you describe sounds a lot like me at your age (and truth be told -- sometimes even now). Despair seems so all-encompassing. It's not though. It sucks that all of these feelings have to come on at the same time (why couldn't we be upset about school, but happy with our boyfriend, for example).
As for your parents, I really don't know. I've never met them, so don't know how much of what you describe is typical over-protectiveness and how much is simply you growing up and them not liking it (actually, that often comes out to be the same thing). Often times, parents expect you to be the same person with the same interests that you were when you were younger. It takes them a while to accept that you are becoming an adult with your own opinions and ideas (I don't think mine ever fully accepted that). It's hard to express your frustrations to them without them thinking you're just whining, you know?
I encourage you to find someone you can speak with. You're always welcome to come talk with me! I'm almost always free from 12:30 to 2:00 if you have a free period, and we can always find other times! Don't worry too much. The fact that you are asking all these questions about yourself shows that you want to do something about it. You WILL get through this!!
You're a fantastic girl, Tristan. Remember that!