and while I sit here wasting my time away
With a paper due tomorrow, a midterm on tuesday and thursday,
I just keep thinking of better times.
It's quite like SAW, isn't it? I saw the trailer for saw yesterday because joseph showed me. from what i understand, those people were there because they did not appreciate their life. only after their life was endangered did they come to value their existence and the things they took for granted.
In the same way, while idling my time away and thoroughly dreading this week, I think about all the things that I wish I could be doing instead. The sad thing is that I had plenty of time to do it, after the first round of midterms. and now that I have come to want to, I can't. Ha. ha. ha. funny, isn't it?
I have a new agenda, and a few goals. I have plans that I want to carry out, and, I have a secret.
I really wish I had someone to talk to about this. Really preferring a girl. It's weird how the one girl that I want to talk to about this kind of thing is several miles away in davis. here in irvine, it's all good fun and all, but I don't think the people I talk to can relate with me on this. instead, my roommate is a sufficient conversation partner, but sometimes I feel like, well, she's very mature, and in this case too mature. Whatever I say just sounds really pointless and ultimately has no relationship to her. I mean, it's good to have people to tell me "you're fine just the way you are." well, but still. Someone who is pretty similar and can understand how i feel would be nice. ha. ha.
oh by the way, earthquake happened just now. I'm fine, I think. Hopefully there's not aftershock. my heart is still beating rapidly though. I'm glad I wasn't in the elevator.
what if i just died here?
I just keep thinking of better times.
It's quite like SAW, isn't it? I saw the trailer for saw yesterday because joseph showed me. from what i understand, those people were there because they did not appreciate their life. only after their life was endangered did they come to value their existence and the things they took for granted.
In the same way, while idling my time away and thoroughly dreading this week, I think about all the things that I wish I could be doing instead. The sad thing is that I had plenty of time to do it, after the first round of midterms. and now that I have come to want to, I can't. Ha. ha. ha. funny, isn't it?
I have a new agenda, and a few goals. I have plans that I want to carry out, and, I have a secret.
I really wish I had someone to talk to about this. Really preferring a girl. It's weird how the one girl that I want to talk to about this kind of thing is several miles away in davis. here in irvine, it's all good fun and all, but I don't think the people I talk to can relate with me on this. instead, my roommate is a sufficient conversation partner, but sometimes I feel like, well, she's very mature, and in this case too mature. Whatever I say just sounds really pointless and ultimately has no relationship to her. I mean, it's good to have people to tell me "you're fine just the way you are." well, but still. Someone who is pretty similar and can understand how i feel would be nice. ha. ha.
oh by the way, earthquake happened just now. I'm fine, I think. Hopefully there's not aftershock. my heart is still beating rapidly though. I'm glad I wasn't in the elevator.
what if i just died here?