I have no idea what's going on.
I feel really sad and alone. Nothing in my life, other than being able to walk and feel okay, is going well or the way I want it. I'm not even sure where to start changing things.
I just want to spend my days and nights with Jonathan for now. He inspires me and loves me and I really really appreciate that.
I've had a huge ordeal with the kidney stone thing and he was there for every minute that he could be while he was trying to finish his degree and I couldn't be there for him and I'm just a loser.
I don't really feel close to anyone else right now. I don't really want to talk or think about derby. I don't really want to job search even tho I desperately need to. I don't want to think about ridiculous medical bills.
I'm pretty much being bowled over by life cause I can't live it any way near the way I would like to live it.
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I just want to spend my days and nights with Jonathan for now. He inspires me and loves me and I really really appreciate that.
I've had a huge ordeal with the kidney stone thing and he was there for every minute that he could be while he was trying to finish his degree and I couldn't be there for him and I'm just a loser.
I don't really feel close to anyone else right now. I don't really want to talk or think about derby. I don't really want to job search even tho I desperately need to. I don't want to think about ridiculous medical bills.
I'm pretty much being bowled over by life cause I can't live it any way near the way I would like to live it.
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