life...
So here’s how it is for me: I’m just one of the guys for the most part. Sometimes it has it’s perks I mean they talk freely in front of me and to me because they’re comfortable enough to do so and we flirt with each other and say things that don’t really have any meaning it’s just all fun and games. But sometimes I wish they would take notice to the fact that I am a girl and sometimes I just want them to say hey you look good today, I mean I don’t take compliments too well but I’d smile and be happy because they’re my friends and they noticed the little things but they are guys and they don’t tend to notice things like that. I do dress up in booby showing shirts every once in a while to get their attention but that’s as far as it goes. Shannon told me this morning I’m a tease and I guess you could say I am but there are worst things out there than that. I mean yea I do tease my guy friends but they don’t take it badly. I don’t know what to do. I asked Jerred a hypothetical question, of what do you do when you’re just one of the guys and you like one of your friends more than just a friend, and he told me that he could make it happen, and that I should hang out with him more often just the two of us. In response I told him it’s kind of hard to do that because our schedules make it quite difficult. I wasn’t talking about someone in particular I was just asking a general hypothetical question. I think that if you have a friend who doesn’t really notice you in that way you should ask yourself first: is it worth losing you friendship over if it doesn’t work out? But then again if it doesn’t work out and you still can’t be friends afterwards you weren’t too good of friends in the first place right? Second ask yourself: can you really see the two of you together in a relationship other than friendship if so you need to discuss how you feel about the other person and be prepared for whatever the answer may be I mean they might just want to be friends you have to be prepared to deal with that or they might say okay let’s have a go at being more you have to mentally and emotionally prepare yourself when engaging in things like that. Well I guess I’m done with my rambling.