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so i thought i was dying yesterday because i had a hole in the side of my throat come to find out after going to the doctor's i'm totally fine and that is what my tonsils are supposed to look like it's just that my left one is really big and my right one is a lot smaller and what looks like a hole is the covering of my right tonsil. so i totally freaked out for nothing.
the screen on my phone is totally freakin' screwed up tomorrow i'm going to verizon to see what the hell is wrong with it. if they cant fix it and they say i'm gonna have to just get a new one i'll just wait a month until we qualify for new phones then i won't have to worry about it, i mean my phone still works it calls and texts lloyd at least and that's all that matters if it didnt' call or text anyone else in the world i couldn't care less because they're not as important as lloyd is. i just wish he knew that. i mean sometimes he second guesses my love for him and it makes me hella angry and sad that he would think that my friends are more important when they're not at all if he asked me to never speak to any of my friends ever again i wouldn't it's as simple as that. i would just write them off like i wrote jae and travis off. my friends are not as or never will be as important to me in my life as lloyd is and always will be. he's the one that has always and will continue to always be there for me not matter what. and i really need to treat him better. he takes a lot of shit from me and he still sticks around i really need to take his feelings into consideration like when i talked to travis i didn't consider how that would make lloyd feel because he thought i was trying to get back with him and i wasn't by no means. i was trying to hurt travis in any way i possibly could because he hurt lloyd by trying to take me away and i will never allow any boy to take me away from lloyd because no boy in this world or any other for that matter is worth losing lloyd over. i'm a bad person for the way i treat lloyd there is no excuse for it and i will start treating him like the prince he is. because he deserves so much more and i'm just glad that he doesn't leave me for someone who will treat him how he deserves to be treated.
i got all of my bills figured out and i know that i have to borrow money from allied cash advance to pay for the gas card this month so they dont charge me a late fee and then i can't use it and then it makes mom's credit even shitter. i think that if i continue to pay it on time everytime it will some what a little bit make mom's credit better. and now that i have it to where i can pay it online it'll be easier to pay it on time. well that's all for now. i'll write again when i have anything worth writing about. to my loyal readers thank you have a good night and don't forget to tip your waitress. later days. peace.
the screen on my phone is totally freakin' screwed up tomorrow i'm going to verizon to see what the hell is wrong with it. if they cant fix it and they say i'm gonna have to just get a new one i'll just wait a month until we qualify for new phones then i won't have to worry about it, i mean my phone still works it calls and texts lloyd at least and that's all that matters if it didnt' call or text anyone else in the world i couldn't care less because they're not as important as lloyd is. i just wish he knew that. i mean sometimes he second guesses my love for him and it makes me hella angry and sad that he would think that my friends are more important when they're not at all if he asked me to never speak to any of my friends ever again i wouldn't it's as simple as that. i would just write them off like i wrote jae and travis off. my friends are not as or never will be as important to me in my life as lloyd is and always will be. he's the one that has always and will continue to always be there for me not matter what. and i really need to treat him better. he takes a lot of shit from me and he still sticks around i really need to take his feelings into consideration like when i talked to travis i didn't consider how that would make lloyd feel because he thought i was trying to get back with him and i wasn't by no means. i was trying to hurt travis in any way i possibly could because he hurt lloyd by trying to take me away and i will never allow any boy to take me away from lloyd because no boy in this world or any other for that matter is worth losing lloyd over. i'm a bad person for the way i treat lloyd there is no excuse for it and i will start treating him like the prince he is. because he deserves so much more and i'm just glad that he doesn't leave me for someone who will treat him how he deserves to be treated.
i got all of my bills figured out and i know that i have to borrow money from allied cash advance to pay for the gas card this month so they dont charge me a late fee and then i can't use it and then it makes mom's credit even shitter. i think that if i continue to pay it on time everytime it will some what a little bit make mom's credit better. and now that i have it to where i can pay it online it'll be easier to pay it on time. well that's all for now. i'll write again when i have anything worth writing about. to my loyal readers thank you have a good night and don't forget to tip your waitress. later days. peace.