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well once again another shitty day. well everyone's probably bored of listening to all my crap lately but you dont necessarily have to read it. i just wright it to get it out of my system, my journal's kinda like my "rock." i can tell it everything and i dont have to listen to the shit that comes from your friends after you complain. so yea today was my "last" day of school, well technically i have semester exams still but yea it was the last regular day i should say. and usually the last day is the best day of the year for everyone, except me. every year i get all sad on the last day cuz i wont see anyone for 2 months from now, and some i might not see ever again cuz of scheduling. but today it was even worse cuz it was the last day of band with bryce for a long time, its sad that he didnt even realize that it was, but even worse that he doesnt seem to care one way or another. he's gonna be in top band where he wanted to be in the first place, and i wont be there for another year or two. but hell what does he care, he's where he wants to be. as long as he's happy, i guess i am too. so then why do i feel so empty, it feels like he just broke up with me, but we're still together. i just feel like i'm seperated from him now, and i really dont know if i want to continue band after marching season. cuz i first i hate concert season, and second i'll never be with him in band after that. so i wont see him, and if we dont have any classes it's just gonna fuck everything up even more. and honestly i dont really wanna be in the wind ensemble, cuz all my percussion buddies are in my band. the only reason i wanna be there is cuz of him. that's one of the only reasons i was even gonna stay in band next year, but now there's no point. so why the fuck am i still hanging around? i should just drop the whole thing, and just go do something that's worth my while, band is just wasting my time, and why should i stay if the one person i'm in it with, doesnt care that i'm not gonna be around anymore. at least i thought he'd care, guess not.
Where are those happy days, they seem so hard to find
I tried to reach for you, but you have closed your mind
Whatever happened to our love?
I wish I understood
It used to be so nice, it used to be so good
So when you're near me, darling can't you hear me
S. O. S.
The love you gave me, nothing else can save me
S. O. S.
When you're gone
How can I even try to go on?
When you're gone
Though I try how can I carry on?
You seem so far away though you are standing near
You made me feel alive, but something died I fear
I really tried to make it out
I wish I understood
What happened to our love, it used to be so good
So when you're near me, darling can't you hear me
S. O. S.
The love you gave me, nothing else can save me
S. O. S.
When you're gone
How can I even try to go on?
When you're gone
Though I try how can I carry on?
So when you're near me, darling can't you hear me
S. O. S.
And the love you gave me, nothing else can save me
S. O. S.
When you're gone
How can I even try to go on?
When you're gone
Though I try how can I carry on?
When you're gone
How can I even try to go on?
When you're gone
Though I try how can I carry on?