overly thought out thoughts...
its been about 2 weeks since i last posted and i havent really done too much with my life. ive flaked on school work, work work and house work. but this weekend i did all of my laundry (a HUGE feat) and just generally cleaned my condo from top to bottom. it was kinda a symbolic thing to bc ive decided to reorganize my life. no drastic changes or anything... just to be different. my life is going to resemble something like that of jennifer lopez's in the beginning of the wedding planner. yes i do realize thats when her life was pathetic and everyone felt bad for her. but well i dont really have enough people here to have a social life (although my rams head boys are good for that sometimes) and i need to focus more of my grades and responsibilities so its an appropriate life for the moment. and im going to try to find a community theater organization that i can help out with and participate in that. not necessarily with people my age, just any theater really thats willing to let my help out for a few hours a week when i can. i need to do more to boost my resume bc as my mass media teacher so bluntly put it, if and when i get to rowan ill be entering as a junior and these kids will already have 2 years of activities under their belt for their resume.
in other news, my classes are decent and work (both jobs) sucks. while i hate all my classes for one reason or another, ive got As so far and honestly at this state, thats all that matters. again as my lovely blunt mass media prof told me rowan only takes 3.3 gpas and up. so ive got a lot of work to do to manage to pull that. i do have a 3.0 now and if i snag triple As this semester, thatd put it at somewhere around a 3.5 i think. so hopefully all that will work out. both of my jobs just absolutely suck... although both are made infinitely better by the people that i work with. the press is just screwing us as a department over left and right and charging people so much money that itll be a wonder if they dont fire me. and ill be the first to go bc even though i have almost a year seniority over michelle (the dumb knocked up 22 yr old) they wont fire her bc shes pregnant and shes the type to sue for discrimination. and mary already only works 25 hours a week and has 2 kids and has worked there like 4 or 5 years more than me - so that just leaves me. which granted isnt TOO bad bc im only hoping to make it (with at least an ounce of sanity in tact) to labor day and then quit anyways.. but i still dont want to be fired. ive worked 5 jobs over the past 6 years and ive never been fired: i quit 1, 1 closed, and im still marginally in contact with the other 3. i guess im being too prideful but im a good worker and i know it and i dont wanna get fired bc the company is dumb and are doing everything possible to prevent our department from making money. rams head is absolutely dead and its driving me insane bc im not used to having my weekends to myself. i like being busy, im better when im busy bc i dont have time to watch 3 movies in one day (aka how i spent my saturday). and i dont even really like working the parties. for some reason, its a guys world there and i work my ass off twice as hard as any of the boys and barely get half the respect. its a huge eye opening experience into the world of sexual discrimination and it fucking sucks. the guys i work with are cool... for the most part. except when theyre teasing me about being a veggie (which i mostly ignore) or being weak (which i shut them up about since i can carry 10 dinners now) or being a girl and telling me to clean after them (which i completely ignore or curse them out for). i feel like its a little sister complex though bc i did overhear them talking about how they thought it was really cool that i took their shit and that i tried so hard and when a waiter from the restaurant side was helping us and i asked him to lift a heavy table for me and he gave me hell about it, the guys made him do it anyways. so it all works out.
and now the question of the week, is a just-turned-29 year old guy too old for a 19-almost-20 year old girl to date??
in other news, my classes are decent and work (both jobs) sucks. while i hate all my classes for one reason or another, ive got As so far and honestly at this state, thats all that matters. again as my lovely blunt mass media prof told me rowan only takes 3.3 gpas and up. so ive got a lot of work to do to manage to pull that. i do have a 3.0 now and if i snag triple As this semester, thatd put it at somewhere around a 3.5 i think. so hopefully all that will work out. both of my jobs just absolutely suck... although both are made infinitely better by the people that i work with. the press is just screwing us as a department over left and right and charging people so much money that itll be a wonder if they dont fire me. and ill be the first to go bc even though i have almost a year seniority over michelle (the dumb knocked up 22 yr old) they wont fire her bc shes pregnant and shes the type to sue for discrimination. and mary already only works 25 hours a week and has 2 kids and has worked there like 4 or 5 years more than me - so that just leaves me. which granted isnt TOO bad bc im only hoping to make it (with at least an ounce of sanity in tact) to labor day and then quit anyways.. but i still dont want to be fired. ive worked 5 jobs over the past 6 years and ive never been fired: i quit 1, 1 closed, and im still marginally in contact with the other 3. i guess im being too prideful but im a good worker and i know it and i dont wanna get fired bc the company is dumb and are doing everything possible to prevent our department from making money. rams head is absolutely dead and its driving me insane bc im not used to having my weekends to myself. i like being busy, im better when im busy bc i dont have time to watch 3 movies in one day (aka how i spent my saturday). and i dont even really like working the parties. for some reason, its a guys world there and i work my ass off twice as hard as any of the boys and barely get half the respect. its a huge eye opening experience into the world of sexual discrimination and it fucking sucks. the guys i work with are cool... for the most part. except when theyre teasing me about being a veggie (which i mostly ignore) or being weak (which i shut them up about since i can carry 10 dinners now) or being a girl and telling me to clean after them (which i completely ignore or curse them out for). i feel like its a little sister complex though bc i did overhear them talking about how they thought it was really cool that i took their shit and that i tried so hard and when a waiter from the restaurant side was helping us and i asked him to lift a heavy table for me and he gave me hell about it, the guys made him do it anyways. so it all works out.
and now the question of the week, is a just-turned-29 year old guy too old for a 19-almost-20 year old girl to date??