"weekend warriors &our best friends, writers werent kidding when they said all good things must end"
so its that time of the year again... my favorite time. the time when my entire life leaves me. i hate august. im not coping well. i didnt last year either. last year i coped by becoming an alcoholic and almost getting kicked outta my house. this year ive managed to not become an alkie but somehow turned myself into a partially anoerxic insomniac whos in serious danger of losing her job if she doesnt start waking up. *sigh*
aint life just grand?? everyones leaving soon... too soon. but then again not soon enough. theres so much chaos and drama and stress and heartbreak when everyones here. esp bc this is like a vacation for everyone. its not permanent. but here is permanent for me. i dont get to act all crazy and irresponsible. life will settle down again once everyone leaves. i dont know what im going to do. i miss all my friends sooo much when theyre not here. but theyre here now and i barely even see them or get to do anything with them. *sigh*
and im breaking my promise to myself. ill still be here labor day. i dont promise myself much and i hate that i broke that promise. *sigh*
aint life just grand?? everyones leaving soon... too soon. but then again not soon enough. theres so much chaos and drama and stress and heartbreak when everyones here. esp bc this is like a vacation for everyone. its not permanent. but here is permanent for me. i dont get to act all crazy and irresponsible. life will settle down again once everyone leaves. i dont know what im going to do. i miss all my friends sooo much when theyre not here. but theyre here now and i barely even see them or get to do anything with them. *sigh*
and im breaking my promise to myself. ill still be here labor day. i dont promise myself much and i hate that i broke that promise. *sigh*