it's getting too hard
it's all getting too hard. i just want it all to go away...i can't keep living denying how i feel inside. i just want it all to be over. im not being true to myself or to anyone. i can't be who i want to be because its the exact oppososite of how i am now. i want so bad to be someone else. i hate me, i hate who i am, HATE it. unlike other teenagers, i dont hate my family and i dont hate my friends. i hate ME, and thats the worst person someone can hate. i get sick looking in the mirror, i want to cry everyday at school, i want to be left alone. i dont know who i am. i dont know what i stand for. i dont know what i want in my life. im so sick of everything. my mom doesnt trust me, my dad thinks im a loser, and my brother doesnt understand me. im so jealous of people its ridiculous. i want to lose weight, and day by day i eat less and less...i want to be prettier...but everyday i look worse and worse. i cant stand it i just cant deal with anything i dont know what to do im so confused right now...why cant it go away??? why cant people look and SEE at the same time? why does it all have to be so hard?