Here I Am Awake!

[kiwigurl03]

Well... I never really have time to get on here and say much but being that I am awake and I don't have anywhere to go until 4:45 pm I thought that I would get on here and describe life since Katrina! I know that I have posted since then but nothing really worth reading! I stayed at my parents' house the weekend before Katrina and then after the hurricane Kenny told me I needed to get my stuff. I went over there and was moved back into my family's home real quick. Since I have been home I have been trying to turn my life around. Me and Kenny didn't really have a good friendship or relationship for the last week or so that I lived there. He just wasn't being the Kenny that I liked to be around and until like 3 days ago I hadn't heard from him at all since I moved back to Denham Springs! Travis moved back home on September 17th and that day we decided that we needed to be together and finally have what we have wanted for over 2 years! We are doing wonderful and I am so happy with him. I was unemployed for a while after I moved back home. I got hired at WEST corporation which is a teleservice communication center that takes inbound calls for many products. Well.. during training Rita decided to try to head our way! I had training at night and the night that the weather got bad they didn't cancel training. If we didn't go we had to reschedule training and you can't reschedule for 30 days so I said forget that. I would've been making over $8 an hour but I knew that I could find a job before then and I need money right away for bills. I don't like my parents having to pay my bills. I am 20 years old and I am mature enough to take care of my own business. I got hired at Mason's Grill as a server and they just love me there. This is my 4th week there and it is awesome. I said that I didn't want to wait tables again after Brunet's but let's just say that Brunet's was a bad place for me to get waiting table experience. Mason's is just awesome. Everyone helps each other and the owners ROCK! Mr. Mike and Ms. Shirley are the best managers I have ever had. People are intimidated by Mike bc he is always stressed while we are busy and no one wants to confront him... anyone who knows me well knows that I will talk to anyone and I am not really scared of people. Everytime Mike looks like he wants to scream I try to make him smile or laugh. Normally it works and then he looks at me with the thought in his head that I am a lil throwed! Which is true but whatever! He has told me that I was his favorite and that I am one of the strongest servers there. He said this to me during my first week of work. I was glad that he was impressed and I continue to impress the people that work there. I really don't think that I will get rid of this job for a while. Out of the whole time I have been living back at home I have only been "out of my box" twice.. And the second time started yesterday before my 2nd shift at work and it is continuing as I type. I didn't sleep at all last night and I am still all blah! I worked from 10:45 til about 2:30 and then clocked back on at 4:30 and worked until after 9pm! It was a crazy day! In the past 3 days all I have consumed is a crack load of coffee at work and a few cucumber slices when I am making salads. As of now I am not hungry and I have lost almost 10 lbs in 3 days... mainly just water weight but it's a start. I am not starving myself for those who might think that after reading what I said. I just work so much and I don't like to eat late at night or in the morning... so yeah.. if I don't get to get food at work I just don't eat! Anywho.. back to the people I work with. I have made some really good friends! Millie and Katie are probably two of my favorite girls and Justin and Rick are the guys that Rock! Everyone is pretty easy going and fun to work with. Enough about work! I'm going to talk about Travis! I posted right after I realized how much I love him and how much he means to me but I just cant say it enough. I love him with all my heart and soul. I told him that he has the key to my heart and I don't every want it back. He is my everything! He just got a job in Holden and we are saving to move into an apt together. We might move to Hammond because my goal is to go back to SLU in the fall and he works in Holden which isn't far from Hammond! He is the one that mentioned that to me. He is so understanding of what I want out of life and he doesn't judge me for the things that are in my life that I should try to get away from. He is there for me 100% and he even sat down with his brother and told him that he was in love with me. Austin, his brother, is really cool. I have been hanging out at Austin's house a lot lately. It's me, Travis, Austin, and Ashley (which is Austin's wife!) I love going over there. We just sit around and watch TV but it's relaxing and comfortable. I can be myself without people judging me. They are great friends. Austin just laughs at a lot of the things I say. Even I know I say some off the wall shit sometimes! Wow.. I have said alot so far! Yay..
I could go on and on about Travis but I know if people still read this that they don't want to hear the same shit over and over. I will just put it this way... My feelings for Travis are so strong that it makes the way I felt for Brent totally different. I guess I just loved Brent's friendship and we thought that it was much more. I did love Brent and I was in love with him for a while but we were way too different to last! He was just a learning experience which I have grown greatly from!

My sis is getting married in June and it seems like time is going so fast that her wedding will be here before you know it! I am excited about it. Troy is awesome for her and I can't wait to be her maid of honor! I get to sing and stand next to her and plan all kinds of fun things. I am so ready. Me and Shannon are getting along so much better now and I love it. Since I have been home and happy with Travis my whole attitude has changed for the better and everyone in my family can see that. I am getting close to both my parents again and even my brother. It's awesome what being in love can do to your outlook on life. I always said that I wasn't getting married and now I am pretty positive that I will. I still don't know if I will ever have children though! hehe!

Halloween is right around the corner and I should be going to Carlotta St with Travis and friends! I also know people from work going up there.. yay! Also my work is having a Costume contest on Saturday at 9 and the winner gets a $50 bar tab! If anyone is interested! It's going to be much fun. I might go just to see people dressed up but I work that morning so I don't know! Well, I think that is all for now. My ass is starting to hurt from this chair.. Just thought I would share that!