7. I am having a really hard time coming to terms with going back to Minnesota....
......I like my independence here and I'm not sure how much I still fit in in Minnesota.
It isn't sure yet where I'm going for co-op. Hopefully I will be sure by the end of the week. My top choice is now in Chicago/just outside it, but It is very very likely that I will end up back in MN. I know it would only definitely be for 3 months but it could be longer. I don't want to live in MN. Most all my friends are out here. Deadria's out here. I'm one of those people who likes the new but has to mentally prepare for starting over.
I'll miss living in the city(small as providence is). Getting up and being able to just walk down the street to whatever you want. The noise. I'll miss not being the only person of color around. I like having friends who listen to the same music I do as well as those who don't. I feel like when I go back I don't quite fit in so much anymore.
I love my parents but I can't live with them again. It's weird. I can make a mess in my room, cook for just one person. I like not having anyone worry about where I go. Or having to work my scechdule around other people. I can stay out all night, come in drunk and make eggs with noone waking up and asking me questions. I am going to miss my independence. It might be selfish but hell I'm 22, single, no children now is the time to be selfish.
It will definitely take some getting use to. Hey, I can always move back after graduation.