I'm a lazy bitch
Yes, I am. I admit it.
In about two weeks my final exams will start and I should be learning hard for my exams now... but I'm not. I'm so tired and I just can't handle it anymore. Sometimes I'm reading in my history-book but no facts stucks in my head. I'm worried. I'm completly stressed out or actually I was. Till a week ago I was totally stressed out. All I wanted to do was sleep sleep sleep. Even thinking of the possibility of failing my exams caused me panic attacks. Then a week ago my holiday started and I promised myself to try to relax a little and now I'm just not thinking about my exams. As soon as I think about them I freak out, neither can I force myself to go learning. But I really really have to. I want to pass my exams so bad.
Today I almost had a side-collision. In two weeks I'm having an exam for my drivers license and my mum allowed me to drive to her friend who lives three streets from us. I wasn't used to this car + I was wearing high heels (I know that it was a bad). I couldn't brake so fast + I hadn't seen a man coming from the right and I almost hit him.. I was almost in shock, my mom screamed which freaked me out. I drove upon the sidewalk and almost hit the lamppost. Now I'm scared to drive, my mum forced me to drive further because she was afraid that otherwise I wouldn't dare anymore at all. But I was shaking like hell. Now I'm having a driving lessons this monday, I hope my teacher can reassure me..
In about two weeks my final exams will start and I should be learning hard for my exams now... but I'm not. I'm so tired and I just can't handle it anymore. Sometimes I'm reading in my history-book but no facts stucks in my head. I'm worried. I'm completly stressed out or actually I was. Till a week ago I was totally stressed out. All I wanted to do was sleep sleep sleep. Even thinking of the possibility of failing my exams caused me panic attacks. Then a week ago my holiday started and I promised myself to try to relax a little and now I'm just not thinking about my exams. As soon as I think about them I freak out, neither can I force myself to go learning. But I really really have to. I want to pass my exams so bad.
Today I almost had a side-collision. In two weeks I'm having an exam for my drivers license and my mum allowed me to drive to her friend who lives three streets from us. I wasn't used to this car + I was wearing high heels (I know that it was a bad). I couldn't brake so fast + I hadn't seen a man coming from the right and I almost hit him.. I was almost in shock, my mom screamed which freaked me out. I drove upon the sidewalk and almost hit the lamppost. Now I'm scared to drive, my mum forced me to drive further because she was afraid that otherwise I wouldn't dare anymore at all. But I was shaking like hell. Now I'm having a driving lessons this monday, I hope my teacher can reassure me..