i am never going to be early...EVER AGAIN!
i love it when people update. not only do i get something to read, but i also get a glimpse of everyone's life...or what they're willing to share at least.
some of you may be wondering why the hell i'm up so late...or early. i am asking myself the same question. actually, i know why i'm up. this is my punishment for going to bed early. went to bed at 11, woke up at 3 and here i am. and people ask me why i never go to bed early. because this shit happens, that's why!
although i'm suffering from this horrible insomnia, i am quite content at the moment. sitting in my warm bed and staring at this glowing screen is pretty comforting. weird, i know. but do we really expect anything less than weird from me? c'mon guys.
school as of late has been sucking much ass. i partially only have myself to blame for zoning out in class and not keeping up with the hw in my online classes. i guess the only thing i can do now is to drop out of college. haha. just kidding. i just need some motivation and stuff. don't you wish that they sold those things in a bottle? like confidence or self esteem in a bottle. oh, courage would be a good one too. if they really sold that stuff, i would so be buying that shit in wholesale. like hella costco style.
a lot has been on my mind lately. i guess i'll just try not to let them bother me for now and focus on the more important things...like ice cream! or school. i like ice cream a lot more though.
don't you guys hate how you sometimes don't have control over your feelings? i mean, they're YOUR feelings, why can't YOU have control over them? i totally hate that sometimes. i mean, when someone can give you those butterfly in your stomach, can't eat can't sleep because you're filled with happiness kind of feeling, then yeah, everything is peachy. but when it's those stomach-churning, heart-wrenching ones...it makes you kinda wish that you were some lifeless object that doesn't have to endure those horrible feelings. but i guess that's all apart of being human. i mean, we could never really appreciate and cherish the happy moments in life without having experienced some sadness as well. sounds pretty cliche, i know, but i guess it does hold some truth to it. hm.
i have this crazy craving for a smoothie right now. maybe i'll go to jamba juice before school. aw...damian. it's weird how i associate jamba juice with damian. i noticed that i do that a lot. i like to associate things to my friends. like when i see dinosaurs, i think anne. or like roxy, felicia. and i can't help but to think of jon and anne when i watch my super sweet 16 or felicia and em when one tree hill is on (especially if i see lucas or nathan). i know that it's rather odd, but i can't help it! maybe i'm not really associating my friends with things, but instead i get reminded of them quite easily. still though, it's rather strange.
speaking of dinosaurs, i went to that discover channel store and i saw a dino kite...plus a bunch of other kites. i hella want to go fly a kite, like tomorrow or something. hahaha. anyone want to join me? we can sing that mary poppin song as well! well, maybe we won't sing that mary poppin song, but i am dead serious about the kite flying bit. yeah, i act like a little kid. i'm sure if you guys weren't my friends, you guys would have never guessed that i'm 20. oh well. at least you'll all know that it's me when you see some old person skipping with an ice cream cone when we have reunions/get-togethers hella years later. i can see it now...
"who the hell is that random person skipping over here?!"
"i think i see an ice cream cone...and a kite."
"hm, must be brittany....what is she now? 43?!"
or not. but yes.
well, it's 6 in the morning now. i guess i can try going back to sleep or something. maybe i can make myself breakfast and for once, not have to eat it while driving to school. eh, we'll see what happens.
some of you may be wondering why the hell i'm up so late...or early. i am asking myself the same question. actually, i know why i'm up. this is my punishment for going to bed early. went to bed at 11, woke up at 3 and here i am. and people ask me why i never go to bed early. because this shit happens, that's why!
although i'm suffering from this horrible insomnia, i am quite content at the moment. sitting in my warm bed and staring at this glowing screen is pretty comforting. weird, i know. but do we really expect anything less than weird from me? c'mon guys.
school as of late has been sucking much ass. i partially only have myself to blame for zoning out in class and not keeping up with the hw in my online classes. i guess the only thing i can do now is to drop out of college. haha. just kidding. i just need some motivation and stuff. don't you wish that they sold those things in a bottle? like confidence or self esteem in a bottle. oh, courage would be a good one too. if they really sold that stuff, i would so be buying that shit in wholesale. like hella costco style.
a lot has been on my mind lately. i guess i'll just try not to let them bother me for now and focus on the more important things...like ice cream! or school. i like ice cream a lot more though.
don't you guys hate how you sometimes don't have control over your feelings? i mean, they're YOUR feelings, why can't YOU have control over them? i totally hate that sometimes. i mean, when someone can give you those butterfly in your stomach, can't eat can't sleep because you're filled with happiness kind of feeling, then yeah, everything is peachy. but when it's those stomach-churning, heart-wrenching ones...it makes you kinda wish that you were some lifeless object that doesn't have to endure those horrible feelings. but i guess that's all apart of being human. i mean, we could never really appreciate and cherish the happy moments in life without having experienced some sadness as well. sounds pretty cliche, i know, but i guess it does hold some truth to it. hm.
i have this crazy craving for a smoothie right now. maybe i'll go to jamba juice before school. aw...damian. it's weird how i associate jamba juice with damian. i noticed that i do that a lot. i like to associate things to my friends. like when i see dinosaurs, i think anne. or like roxy, felicia. and i can't help but to think of jon and anne when i watch my super sweet 16 or felicia and em when one tree hill is on (especially if i see lucas or nathan). i know that it's rather odd, but i can't help it! maybe i'm not really associating my friends with things, but instead i get reminded of them quite easily. still though, it's rather strange.
speaking of dinosaurs, i went to that discover channel store and i saw a dino kite...plus a bunch of other kites. i hella want to go fly a kite, like tomorrow or something. hahaha. anyone want to join me? we can sing that mary poppin song as well! well, maybe we won't sing that mary poppin song, but i am dead serious about the kite flying bit. yeah, i act like a little kid. i'm sure if you guys weren't my friends, you guys would have never guessed that i'm 20. oh well. at least you'll all know that it's me when you see some old person skipping with an ice cream cone when we have reunions/get-togethers hella years later. i can see it now...
"who the hell is that random person skipping over here?!"
"i think i see an ice cream cone...and a kite."
"hm, must be brittany....what is she now? 43?!"
or not. but yes.
well, it's 6 in the morning now. i guess i can try going back to sleep or something. maybe i can make myself breakfast and for once, not have to eat it while driving to school. eh, we'll see what happens.