Jun 16, 2003 16:23
"nothing beats the pain of knowing that you're right for each other, just not right now."
i kno you tried your best to make this hurt a little less, but it didn't work. and for that, i'm sorry.
sometimes i think about stuff that has hapnd and i want to kill you. i kno that's a little blunt and mean but it's how i feel and you always said i was the honest one. and then other times i just want to hug you for the joy you've brought into my life. so thanks for being my best friend through thick and thin. i kno you'll read this, but you don't hav to talk it over with me, becuz i'm not too big into talking things out anymore, but you wouldn't kno that.
ppl change and you don't even kno, and that's a pity.
when ur away from someone for a long time...a lot of things begin to change. and some things that you think will be the last to change, are the first. it doesn't seem fair. you think it'll always be there, but then when you see that person again, it's just gone. with no explanation.
this may sound mean, but i'm going to take the risk, becuz you think everything i say is mean anyway. i'm sorry if i made you feel bad, bringing up the past. but i didn't mean to. but it's the truth, you did. and you were. and i don't think it's fair that you can say that about me now, but i couldn't say it about you then. you were the one that started it all. so if you want to be the one to finish it, then be my guest. we should hav ended this a long time ago. becuz it would hav been easier then. the times were better, the feelings weren't so strong, or bitter. and we would hav had a lot more comfort if you could hav just ended it then. but you couldn't. you just had to keep me hanging on. like you're doing now. only this time i'm not sure that i can. and to you i am sorry. but that's the way it is. you're not the only one that has to destroy things. and you are the first person that i must destroy out of my life.