you say you wanna go...

May 16, 2003 11:31

life is too short to cry over pointless things you can't change.

a new beginning usually comes from another beginnings end.

i don't want you to be like i was. i made a lot of mistakes that cost me a lot and i still haven't recovered. i don't want you to have to go through the pain and regret i've lived with for so long. i kno you don't think it's gunna happen-i didn't either. the last thing i expected was that'd i fall for him through it all, but i did. please just wait and see how things work out. i may not make a difference, but you'll never kno if you don't give it a try.

i never knew silence could be so loud. i want the time to pass so i kno that you're ok and i don't have to worry anymore.

there is a time coming up that you cannot avoid no matter what you do. it must come, and you must go through it. it may be tough but it's spose to be. it won't be easy for you but what other way could you learn? i don't mean to sound brash, but sometimes one has to.

i'm still trying to figure out what hapnd. i was lying to myself all along and i couldn't escape from the false reality i had created for myself. now that i'm a little better, i can't even understand why i would do the things that i did. i hurt the people that i cared about the most, and i didn't even kno it. you may not be able to relate, but that hurts me.

as much as i don't want to say this...i'm glad i stayed. and i'm glad you stayed. i don't kno where i would be if i didn't have you to help me through all of this. "since we're on good terms, thanks for everything"

this is a time of goodbye. it is spose to be sad, yet it is spose to fill you with hope and joy and love but also sadness, despair, and regret. you're spose to feel all of what you're feeling now. if you weren't, where else would you be?

i guess it's just starting over again, i asked for it.

"and the world will be a better place, put a little love in your heart."

when i was growing up i didn't kno a lot, but at least i knew who i was and where i stood in life. but now as i'm still growing up, i don't really kno who i am, but i think i kno where i stand. looking back on everything that has hapnd. i realize that i was exactly who you said i was, i kno i am, but i'm turning into who i said i would be.
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