On being the ugly girl

Mar 06, 2010 09:36

He said you're really an ugly girl, but I like the way you play.

This post is inspired by a conversation I had last night with bobcatgoldfish. I don't respond well to being told I'm pretty/beautiful/even vaguely normal looking. I frequently claim to be "freaky" or "weird" looking and don't expect people to respond with "No you don't..." I have this whole ( Read more... )

friends, boys, insecurity, disorder

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uberta March 6 2010, 15:57:26 UTC
I was born with a face that most would consider attractive and I thought it was boring, and I had it permanently altered. There was much more to the story, but that was part of it. My nose has gone through the most changes. "Pretty" people tend to be uninteresting to look at and uninteresting to speak to, though there are exceptions. I like the unusual and the unconventional.

I've got a fascinating niece who always has a new whine about how people assume her to be a boy. She doesn't listen when told that our family has flat youths and around 60% of us more than make up for it in midlife because midlife too far away for her to be able to imagine. I've told her that I wished I had looked more like her when young, in the face. I've told her she has modeling potential because of her looks, and that completely turns her off because she's in a phase where she feels she has to be a tomboy or else boys will think she's weak or something, and modeling feels too girly for her. But she's over a decade younger than you, if you're 25.

If I could turn back time, I don't know if I would have made different choices. When I asked James how he liked my [whatever], he would say, "[Whatever the original was]." Also, if James suddenly became some run-of-the-mill average sized man, I would be sick.

I'm not sure what my point is. I think you look like a person who has a lot going on in her mind, and that's a high compliment from me.

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kittywonderland March 9 2010, 13:48:28 UTC
I think you look like a person who has a lot going on in her mind, and that's a high compliment from me.

This is a compliment, I really appreciate it. x

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