Something He said...
(My phone can do weird but cool things!)
...got stuck in my brain the other night. I was crying, something snapped inside and i was just crying. Yes i know i do this alot. He wrapped his arms around me to stop the anxiety attack from going further. I said something things and he stopped and he looked at me. He told me that all the love from those 5 years was my doing. I loved him, i created the emotions and feelings and the meanings behind everything.
i stopped crying for a moment to stare at him. I think something finally sunk in. Whether it was real...whether its the truth...or not...i think its something i can believe in.
Everytime were laying there in that bed, he never fails to take a moment...despretly so...to tell me how much he loves me. he pours his heart out on me every single time i see him. even cries tears of joy...and i just lay there and marvel at the passion that brews in him and grows with every day that passes together.
Sometimes he pushes me down and everything inside me flutters for a moment and when i open my eyes i see him smiling at me. Sometimes he must wonder about me, because i dont smile half as much as he does...but then im just in shock of everything. because this IS something i can believe in...this IS something i can love...he is someone i can trust...someone i can love.
and then i start to cry again, but theres no sadness to be found in me. I start to laugh uncontrollably...and im still crying. He smiles and his light brown eyes almost seem to shine. Something new is born inside of me, and i lock my arms around him.
...sorry i guess im feeling lovey dovey.
