Living in a self-imposed bubble.
It's almost Christmas holidays! Oh, I am so grateful. This has been a really long semester. I've learned so much more than I could have imagined but I have paid for every bit in hard work and constant stress. I've done better than I thought I could, too, and my marks are all Bs and As, which has never happened before. But the manic energy of success can only hold me up for so long each time and I'm just hoping it will last until after next Wednesday when I'm done. Also, I could not be more thankful for the group of people I was tossed into. Every one of them is so kind and understanding and inspiring and I know I couldn't smile and laugh every day if it wasn't for their support.
In a lot of ways this has been the best thing that could have happened to me this year. I've been forced back into the 'real world' and out of the little comfort bubble I built myself last year. I've picked up my Japanese studying again (way less than I should but progress is progress) and that has opened the door on a lot of the feelings I tucked away last year. The parting sadness and the missing-people grief that I just glossed over. Now I actually feel more myself and energized then I ever have before, I think. So, I'm motivating myself to send Christmas cards to all my loved ones in Japan to remind them that I exist and that I haven't forgotten them contrary to what my previous actions must have told them.
And I'm so sorry if any of you feel I have forgotten you. I could never, ever. Even if we only send one message a year or less, even if I haven't seen you since I left PG, I do remember you and I cherish our friendship no matter how long it's been on hold.
ETA: I do realize how incredibly twee this post is. It's from the heart. :P
In a lot of ways this has been the best thing that could have happened to me this year. I've been forced back into the 'real world' and out of the little comfort bubble I built myself last year. I've picked up my Japanese studying again (way less than I should but progress is progress) and that has opened the door on a lot of the feelings I tucked away last year. The parting sadness and the missing-people grief that I just glossed over. Now I actually feel more myself and energized then I ever have before, I think. So, I'm motivating myself to send Christmas cards to all my loved ones in Japan to remind them that I exist and that I haven't forgotten them contrary to what my previous actions must have told them.
And I'm so sorry if any of you feel I have forgotten you. I could never, ever. Even if we only send one message a year or less, even if I haven't seen you since I left PG, I do remember you and I cherish our friendship no matter how long it's been on hold.
ETA: I do realize how incredibly twee this post is. It's from the heart. :P