I remember now...
After a slow first few days, the last two have helped encourage me to log in.
Had a great party on rdm, going from 37-42 in about 5 or 6 hours. Glad the real tough part is over with; and I'm loving refresh and convert.
I've been shying away from the few events I've been around for since I logged in, partly due to needing to find some fun before I committed to working, but I made it down to dynamis tonight. AFs were dropping like mad, including the blm stuff I committed myself to. Couldn't bring myself to lot tho, some of the people who requested it are 1st job blms, and i've been gone for months. When the 2nd dropped I got a tell from J wondering why I wasn't lotting. I didn't really expect it from him (to notice or encourage me to claim what I wanted). It boosted my spirits about still being a part of this place. Passed on it regardless. But finally took a shot at the 3rd drop and lost.
But I got the 4th - grateful I was the only one lotting for it. Glad it worked out that way.
The tanking chain madness's of trolls that came after, in the company of amazing players and friends, really helped make my night.
{See you again!}