Boots on Layaway
So....
I have been pretty patient.. over all having a good time, even though it is different from what I was hoping for. Hiking around central Oregon and hangin with family is great, but it's not what I left for. I left instead, hoping to take off on a grand life changing adventure putting aside all worries and minor things that would hold me back.. getting away from getting lost in my head... It is important to me.
And I am trying trying trying... To keep my new life positive, but I have also learned from getting myself hurt for being too nice and letting people walk over me.
I am not upset that things happen.. but am irritated that things could have been avoided.
If I had stayed in town one more week, I would have gotten my checks on time.. got boots on time.. payed bills on time.. spent more time with friends (on their birthdays), spent more time training at the gym, and possible found some temporary work. Didn't happen, now I am paying for it, oh well, we move on.
Got here, practice trip, family bonding, garage sale, check, boots check, food & maps, check... Why am I still here? Moving?
Things we have no control over.. Drew's car battery dying Saturday.. Drew coming down with the flu Saturday night/Yesterday. This is all recent. It happens.
Now, I am well aware and experienced that some people cannot be convinced to take care of their things before going to party. Also, some people (and I know a few) easily blame those friends for being the influence of why they, themselves also, did not take care of things.
Getting a couple extra days of work is a good thing, wish I had that. So, don't go out and party so hard you don't go anyways because you're just too hungover. It was fun? Sure. Would have been more fun if there wasn't still the stress of a lot to do.
Moving sucks.. I have done it a million times and know it sucks. So, I offered my help from the beginning. (tommy still needed a place to stay) Tommy is a grown man and can take care of himself, also it was already concluded that the things he needed would be left anyways. (There is no running water at the new house) Again.. not really a big deal get most everything over, and what you need to live can chill at the old place till we're ready to go.
Above all.. It makes much more sense to me.. to get the big moving shit done.. so you don't have that stress on top of everything and while you're out spending time with friends who are moving.
If things had been done.. We could have still gone out a couple nights, had a good time, say goodbye and be on our way having a fantastic time, the battery wouldn't have died when we needed it.
If things had been done, Drew would be less stressed about moving, partied less, gotten more sleep, ate better during the days perhaps he would not be sick now.
It's very interesting how so much "fun" can severely weaken the immune system.. I am definitely NOT against having a good time, but especially when you know you need to be in positive shape.. take care of yourself?
I knew a week before I left Portland, and made sure to get everything I could done on time in respect of the other persons time lines.. I even got to go out with friends quite a bit and had a blast. Since I have been here. Its "we'll leave... within the next couple days.." everyday.. I feel I have been led on, or maybe just no one was paying attention to how much time and procrastination was going on. Sunday morning I was a few hours from taking back the boots and putting money to finding my own smaller adventure. So at least it was something. Maybe I should have been more demanding of my own time lines.. Urged the moving process earlier... made it clear what was important to me instead of just letting things take course..
SO maybe.. Just a million misunderstandings...
Either way.. whats done is done, and whats not done still needs to be done. Unfortunately, the flu is just something that needs to be waited out. And I DO care and hope Drew gets better quickly regardless of the trip.
In the meantime.. I am not often bored.. Felt a little sideways now and again in my head.. but I am still going to have a good time. Went for a walk today with Dad.. Very good. Been doodling again.. Very good. Been dreaming of new adventures.. planning on becoming more independent in my adventures, more of a leader and hoping to convince friends to join me now and again. Thinking of ways to make money over the winter so I can further take care of my life. Try Portland? Or try Bend? leave it up to the first place that gives me a job?
Thinking of what I'd like to do in preparation, physically and educationally, for my dream job..
Here's one Idea..
http://www.nols.edu/
Patagonia maybe? Wilderness first aid, Teamwork, Physical strength.. All good things in becoming involved with Fire & Rescue.
Anyways..
Well.. Its up in the air now.. on the day we leave we will have to plan a new route because there is just not time for everything else. Even a few weeks will be much greater than nothing.
I have been pretty patient.. over all having a good time, even though it is different from what I was hoping for. Hiking around central Oregon and hangin with family is great, but it's not what I left for. I left instead, hoping to take off on a grand life changing adventure putting aside all worries and minor things that would hold me back.. getting away from getting lost in my head... It is important to me.
And I am trying trying trying... To keep my new life positive, but I have also learned from getting myself hurt for being too nice and letting people walk over me.
I am not upset that things happen.. but am irritated that things could have been avoided.
If I had stayed in town one more week, I would have gotten my checks on time.. got boots on time.. payed bills on time.. spent more time with friends (on their birthdays), spent more time training at the gym, and possible found some temporary work. Didn't happen, now I am paying for it, oh well, we move on.
Got here, practice trip, family bonding, garage sale, check, boots check, food & maps, check... Why am I still here? Moving?
Things we have no control over.. Drew's car battery dying Saturday.. Drew coming down with the flu Saturday night/Yesterday. This is all recent. It happens.
Now, I am well aware and experienced that some people cannot be convinced to take care of their things before going to party. Also, some people (and I know a few) easily blame those friends for being the influence of why they, themselves also, did not take care of things.
Getting a couple extra days of work is a good thing, wish I had that. So, don't go out and party so hard you don't go anyways because you're just too hungover. It was fun? Sure. Would have been more fun if there wasn't still the stress of a lot to do.
Moving sucks.. I have done it a million times and know it sucks. So, I offered my help from the beginning. (tommy still needed a place to stay) Tommy is a grown man and can take care of himself, also it was already concluded that the things he needed would be left anyways. (There is no running water at the new house) Again.. not really a big deal get most everything over, and what you need to live can chill at the old place till we're ready to go.
Above all.. It makes much more sense to me.. to get the big moving shit done.. so you don't have that stress on top of everything and while you're out spending time with friends who are moving.
If things had been done.. We could have still gone out a couple nights, had a good time, say goodbye and be on our way having a fantastic time, the battery wouldn't have died when we needed it.
If things had been done, Drew would be less stressed about moving, partied less, gotten more sleep, ate better during the days perhaps he would not be sick now.
It's very interesting how so much "fun" can severely weaken the immune system.. I am definitely NOT against having a good time, but especially when you know you need to be in positive shape.. take care of yourself?
I knew a week before I left Portland, and made sure to get everything I could done on time in respect of the other persons time lines.. I even got to go out with friends quite a bit and had a blast. Since I have been here. Its "we'll leave... within the next couple days.." everyday.. I feel I have been led on, or maybe just no one was paying attention to how much time and procrastination was going on. Sunday morning I was a few hours from taking back the boots and putting money to finding my own smaller adventure. So at least it was something. Maybe I should have been more demanding of my own time lines.. Urged the moving process earlier... made it clear what was important to me instead of just letting things take course..
SO maybe.. Just a million misunderstandings...
Either way.. whats done is done, and whats not done still needs to be done. Unfortunately, the flu is just something that needs to be waited out. And I DO care and hope Drew gets better quickly regardless of the trip.
In the meantime.. I am not often bored.. Felt a little sideways now and again in my head.. but I am still going to have a good time. Went for a walk today with Dad.. Very good. Been doodling again.. Very good. Been dreaming of new adventures.. planning on becoming more independent in my adventures, more of a leader and hoping to convince friends to join me now and again. Thinking of ways to make money over the winter so I can further take care of my life. Try Portland? Or try Bend? leave it up to the first place that gives me a job?
Thinking of what I'd like to do in preparation, physically and educationally, for my dream job..
Here's one Idea..
http://www.nols.edu/
Patagonia maybe? Wilderness first aid, Teamwork, Physical strength.. All good things in becoming involved with Fire & Rescue.
Anyways..
Well.. Its up in the air now.. on the day we leave we will have to plan a new route because there is just not time for everything else. Even a few weeks will be much greater than nothing.