i follow you around.... in the background

[kittyloveteddy]

yesterday was the worst day ever...im the worst with what ifs... i just can't shake it from my head, just the the thought of maybe haunts me even tho in reality everything is alright. think about what it would be like if you were so small once again and you could have a flower that lived forever, it would never die as long as you kept it, it was a small thing seemingly to others but to you it was the sweetness of life and oh so special and like a little child you carried it around holding on to it tightly in the palm of your small hand, protecting it from the wind and the rain and whatever other perils may threaten it, and after the day was over and the sun gently set as night came over the sky you went to bed and you layed it gently next to you in your bed, and every morning woke to it as the morning light broke through your window, imagine if you lived in a world where this is what mattered most....

and then what if one day you awoke to realize you had crushed the rose in your sleep and it was dead in pieces... and by your own hand

But this is just a what if...the flower is safe...and the nightmare drifts away...however shadow still lingers over me...a flash of lightening comes so close to hitting u and ur sure it will for an instant but somehow it doesnt

i kno this entry is kinda cryptic but it's just my way of saying what's on my mind