Finally, an update
Frankly, there's been nothing much to talk about except a lot of sickness and hospital stays, and really, who wants to hear about all that? I bet you thought I'd forgotten you. I haven't. I've just been a little busy on my holiday, sipping on my Pina Colada flavored contrast liquid and lying around getting Echocardiograms. It's been a real blast of a variety I'm sure you don't want the details of and although the fun is just never ending, I didn't want you to think you weren't all on my mind.
I'm a little more than halfway through Chemotherapy, although we've tacked an extra treatment onto the end, so it'll take longer than originally expected. After that, somewhere beyond the beginning of the New Year, I'll start Radiation and in a couple of month's time, all this will be behind me. My doctor told me just yesterday that a year from now I won't remember how horrific it's been, because the mind is just that way. It won't let you hold on to this kind of stuff.
"Horrific" was his word, and I'd have to agree at this point that it's apt. It's been harder than I'd thought it would be, but I've gotten more support and love than I ever knew existed. The two people from my office that I told you about in earlier posts, both lost their fights with cancer within a month of each other, and their loss has put my own life in a whole new perspective. Everywhere you look, someone has something worse to face and they somehow manage to handle it with more grace. All we can do is to try our best and just keep trying. Grace isn't exactly my forte, but I suppose I can make up for it with persistence...
I'll survive this round of it, and live to fight another day. It's just a matter of odds whether it comes back, and it's a one to four shot I'll face this again in my lifetime. If it happens, I know what to do. I've got the support I need, and I'll be okay. But for right now, I'm still sick as TWO dogs, and it's a challenge to stay vertical for any length of time.
But while I'm up, I just wanted to say hello to those of you I haven't spoken to on Aim. I've been looking in on my flist from time to time, and though I rarely have the energy to comment, I'm keeping up with what you're doing. So many of you are facing your own hard times and going through your own trials that I wish there was something I could say to make things better. Please don't think that because I'm not chiming in that I'm not thinking about you all. You're in my heart and prayers.
I'm a little more than halfway through Chemotherapy, although we've tacked an extra treatment onto the end, so it'll take longer than originally expected. After that, somewhere beyond the beginning of the New Year, I'll start Radiation and in a couple of month's time, all this will be behind me. My doctor told me just yesterday that a year from now I won't remember how horrific it's been, because the mind is just that way. It won't let you hold on to this kind of stuff.
"Horrific" was his word, and I'd have to agree at this point that it's apt. It's been harder than I'd thought it would be, but I've gotten more support and love than I ever knew existed. The two people from my office that I told you about in earlier posts, both lost their fights with cancer within a month of each other, and their loss has put my own life in a whole new perspective. Everywhere you look, someone has something worse to face and they somehow manage to handle it with more grace. All we can do is to try our best and just keep trying. Grace isn't exactly my forte, but I suppose I can make up for it with persistence...
I'll survive this round of it, and live to fight another day. It's just a matter of odds whether it comes back, and it's a one to four shot I'll face this again in my lifetime. If it happens, I know what to do. I've got the support I need, and I'll be okay. But for right now, I'm still sick as TWO dogs, and it's a challenge to stay vertical for any length of time.
But while I'm up, I just wanted to say hello to those of you I haven't spoken to on Aim. I've been looking in on my flist from time to time, and though I rarely have the energy to comment, I'm keeping up with what you're doing. So many of you are facing your own hard times and going through your own trials that I wish there was something I could say to make things better. Please don't think that because I'm not chiming in that I'm not thinking about you all. You're in my heart and prayers.