I need affection...
I was thinking in bed last night, (No, not about THAT), about being single. I really do enjoy it. I have had such stress-free days in the past few weeks not worrying about tommy or any bullshit. We hadn't been together for awhile, but the whole "hanging out" thing totally doesn't work, and I'm glad I finally got the excuse and balls to cut myself off from him completely. You know the ONE thing I miss though? Not necessarily Tommy, but just having someone to cuddle with. Having someone there to hold you after a long day...and the long, sweet kisses that can put you into a blissful sleep. That's what I miss. The affection. I know that I'm not ready for a relationship, and I'm certainly not looking for one. I had fun this weekend hanging out with some old friends, but I definitely don't want a commitment right now. I just wish I had that hug at the end of the day or a kiss available when I'm sad or frustrated, or happy and want someone to share that feeling with me. I think that's the only time when I feel lonely. I'm such an affectionate, huggy, flirty type of person that it's hard not having someone to share that sort of intimacy with. I'm sure in god's perfect timing, someone will come along. I just wish it were sooner than later. Cause I hate sleeping alone...