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Ah, another day.
I think I'm still alive. But somehow it feels as tho I am just a zombie.
I cried myself to sleep lastnight... I don't know why. Just everything hitting me all at once. Life hurts, but I'll move on. And I hope soon I will have a female to share it with, to know how I feel inside. To help when I'm down. She knows who she is, and she knows we've tried this b4 but someone interfeared...
I don't want to take anything away from anyone. But in the end, after all is said and done we end up losing someone. Believe me. I have lost so many. I have gained a few, and those few have helped me pick up the shattered pieces of what was my heart and have made me see that I can move on in some ways. Maybe I will always love her but I know now that I can't have her forever, nothing lasts forever... I have learned that. Someone who was once very close to me taught me that. He always said that bout me and Bryan, but he didn't realize he was saying it bout me and her. I understand now what he ment when he said that. Thank you for that lesson, I needed to see...
Well I'm sitting in the library at school, it's been a wild year. I don't know if this was a good year for me. With losing so many friends and so many tears. I think if I had a dollar for every tear cried in the past school year I'd have billion dollars haha. Maybe more! But I guess in some ways this year has taught me how to grow up. I've learned how to back down from fights(verbal and physical) and I've learned that true love is forever. I have Bryan, my love, I have Cassi, my best friend, and I have that one person that I can not say yet, I love you all so much for being here when I fall, to dust me off again and pick me up off the ground. You all have healed the wounds. Thank you.
And for those who salted my wounds lol. Thank you for making me a stronger person. I forgave you all... but it won't be easy to forget. I don't think I want to forget. I have become a stronger person, with a harder shell. I'm not leaving your lives... instead I'm going to wait til I am needed. You need me, I'm here.
As for those who have fallen off the face of the planet, I'll see you sometime this summer.
I love you all!!! Even if you hate me haha, doesn't that suck for you. To know that the person you hate loves you? :P Oh well.
Peace,
Kitty
Bryan- I love you, *kisses* you're my rock that I hold on to.
Annymous person- You know who you are, thatnks for being here for me. Love you.
Tink- I'm sorry for all the pain.
I think I'm still alive. But somehow it feels as tho I am just a zombie.
I cried myself to sleep lastnight... I don't know why. Just everything hitting me all at once. Life hurts, but I'll move on. And I hope soon I will have a female to share it with, to know how I feel inside. To help when I'm down. She knows who she is, and she knows we've tried this b4 but someone interfeared...
I don't want to take anything away from anyone. But in the end, after all is said and done we end up losing someone. Believe me. I have lost so many. I have gained a few, and those few have helped me pick up the shattered pieces of what was my heart and have made me see that I can move on in some ways. Maybe I will always love her but I know now that I can't have her forever, nothing lasts forever... I have learned that. Someone who was once very close to me taught me that. He always said that bout me and Bryan, but he didn't realize he was saying it bout me and her. I understand now what he ment when he said that. Thank you for that lesson, I needed to see...
Well I'm sitting in the library at school, it's been a wild year. I don't know if this was a good year for me. With losing so many friends and so many tears. I think if I had a dollar for every tear cried in the past school year I'd have billion dollars haha. Maybe more! But I guess in some ways this year has taught me how to grow up. I've learned how to back down from fights(verbal and physical) and I've learned that true love is forever. I have Bryan, my love, I have Cassi, my best friend, and I have that one person that I can not say yet, I love you all so much for being here when I fall, to dust me off again and pick me up off the ground. You all have healed the wounds. Thank you.
And for those who salted my wounds lol. Thank you for making me a stronger person. I forgave you all... but it won't be easy to forget. I don't think I want to forget. I have become a stronger person, with a harder shell. I'm not leaving your lives... instead I'm going to wait til I am needed. You need me, I'm here.
As for those who have fallen off the face of the planet, I'll see you sometime this summer.
I love you all!!! Even if you hate me haha, doesn't that suck for you. To know that the person you hate loves you? :P Oh well.
Peace,
Kitty
Bryan- I love you, *kisses* you're my rock that I hold on to.
Annymous person- You know who you are, thatnks for being here for me. Love you.
Tink- I'm sorry for all the pain.